Was listening to some sad songs.. and i started emo-ing again..
saw somebody's msn display name and i suddenly feel abit of xin tong..
but suan le.. nobody understands..
Haiz.. listening to ying hui..she say she always do her work..
make me feel so zi bei..
sound like she always study..
and i dun study at all de lor..
well, i just can't get myself to sit and study..
too bad. tt is how i am.
oops. i think i'm really starting to hate u somehow.
and i know i hate myself.
somehow. sometimes. somewhere.
do u really trust me after all.
i really doubt it.
nowadays. i really hate studies.
i hate school.
i wan to grow up as soon as possible and finish my studies.
i'm sick and bored of studying.
maybe i did just give up on everything one day.
i may not be able to pull through anyways.
or maybe, i dun wan to do it.
cos i'm tired.
always doing the same things and being..
will i hold on..?
will i live?
it may just depend on u.
i wanna die.

THAT LADYY

` Luping
` Amethyst (Ame)
` 22

` 6H'06 FTPPS
` 104'07 204'08 302'09 402'10 NYGH
` 11S6A HCJC
` NTU

`ELF, Primadonna, F迷, JM and much more

used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;


Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.

For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.

And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.

HER PASTY

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