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& I'm waiting
and now, right here, trying to be optimistic.
trying to cheer ppl up.
trying hard not to make u angry.
trying hard to help.
trying to do everything for u.
trying to make u stop emo-ing.
trying to go online to pei you even for that tiny bit of time to u.
and u told me, u've got somebody else and dun need me.
i know u meant it as a joke, but it broke my heart.
it really did this time.
and i cannot stand it when ppl apologise when they knew they hurt me.
cos i would just forgive them,
even my heart dun really do so.
and now, for once, and for the first time,
my tear dropped becos of u.
becos of u who said tt.
becos of u who dun really care about me.
i know u care, sometimes.
but i tink im not able to be a listening ear to u .
and im just a friend whom u always play with and laugh with.
but i just wanna make this world somehow better..
to laugh, to joke, and certainly to smile.
but my heart broke terribly this time.
and if i unblock u,
u will start apologising.
and i dun wan it.
dun say sorry.
its not ur fault.
it's mine.
for not trying hard enough.
for being emo.
for being such a crybaby.
becos im weak.
im feeling hurt for some reason.
maybe becos i wasnt tt happy today.
i dunno.
i really dunno.
and now u said ni hai shi ai wo de.
just like the normal times when we said we loved each other as teddies.
but it didnt really matter to me anymore.
cos it isnt real, its just fun.
i dunno anymore.
dun mind me.
im just feeling down.
very down.
just down.
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& I'm waiting
wells, ytd sms-ed my group instructor.
glad tt he wasnt angry.
he's so nice pls :X
okay, maybe he sounds nice at least?
well, didnt manage to catch his name .____.
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.Monday, October 29, 2007 ' 8:58 PM Y
& I'm waiting
blah blah blah.
im so dead.
missed the call from my group instructor.
jue wang***
like so long he haven call back.
somemore i was talking to jun wei and alot of ppl called my hse phone after i saw his missed call..
so he probably couldn't get through my phone
and maybe decided to give up?!?!
aiiis aiis aiis.
i hope he doesnt have a bad impression on me
cos he have to call me so many times.. ):
die die die---
.Sunday, October 28, 2007 ' 3:45 PM Y
& I'm waiting
okays, i just wanna apologise.
cos i seriously didnt know about the song hao xiang ni.
i was just looking on the piece of paper u were writing on.
and then got the words hao xiang ni.
so i was thinking what song was tt.
and i said i feel like listening to it.
cos well, it sounded kinda familiar cos alot of songs also kinda use these type of common titles.
well, sry if i caused any inconvenience.
cos i really didnt meant to suggest tt song or wat.
and i dunno wat it was.
SORRY.
. ' 3:37 PM Y
& I'm waiting
lalala. since yh requested me to say happy bdae to mou mou ren,
well shall say it..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YH'S MOU MOU REN!
bb.. zz
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.Thursday, October 25, 2007 ' 8:30 PM Y
& I'm waiting
well, tried to do things for her, care for her, make her happy.
and now i really realised
and i really believed that..
im really nothing in her eyes.
N-O-T-H-I-N-G
NOTHING AT ALL.
AND OF COURSE, IM MUCH MORE MORE MORE MORE MOST WORTHLESS COMPARED TO THE _ _ _ _ _ _ _ IN HER EYES. ITS OBVIOUS.
AND SHE CARED MORE FOR OTHER _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ SUCH AS _ _ _ _ _ _ _ AND _ _ _ _ _ _ _ AND OF COURSE, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
WELL FORGET ABOUT IT.
IF SHE'S GONNA JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND HECK CARE ME,
SO AM I.
WELL, FOLDING STARS AND CRANES NOW FOR SOMEONE SPECIAL.
ACTUALLY NOT SOMEONE, GOT QUITE A LOT OF PPL (:
WELL, THAT KINDA MADE ME MORE HAPPY.
OKAYS, AND WILLA LIED TO ME! WE BOUGHT 18 PACKETS OF STARS PAPER.
AND SHE SAY THERE WERE 13 LEFT WHEN SHE FOLDED FINISH ONE PACKET AND YH TOOK ONE HOME.
WELL, THINK SHE FORGET BAH..
NVM, I STILL LOVE HER.. x) <33
WELL, SHALL CONTINUE FOLDING BAH.
.Wednesday, October 24, 2007 ' 6:08 PM Y
& I'm waiting
Hahas. decided to post some sky pics.
these are all in july one.
sounds so far away.
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12 JULY MORNING! =D
12 JULY MORNING ALSO
13 JULY MORNING
16 JULY MORNING
17 JULY MORNING
18 JULY, IN THE AFTERNOON
20 JULY, EVENING
28 JULY MORNING
30 JULY EVENING
30 JULY EVENING ALSO..
31 JULY MORNING, SO DARK, NTH MUCH TO SEE..
okay. done. shall upload next time.
.Tuesday, October 23, 2007 ' 9:03 PM Y
& I'm waiting
blah blah blah. just moved all the photos of sky to my com.
it's like so long can.. :X
too many files liao.
shall upload next time.
dun really have the mood now.
.Monday, October 22, 2007 ' 6:05 PM Y
& I'm waiting
ahhhs.. kinda mood down today.. :X
but _ _ _ _ cheered me up..
she gave me a shock kays xD
suddenly just talked to me like tt :O
nvm, anyways tt time after cca..
me and yh saw YH's _ _ _ _ _, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
HAHAS. SQUAD SECRET. CANNOT SAY.
ANYWAYS, WAN XIN AND IRIS NOT INCLUDED IN OUR SQUAD LIAO.
SO WE OFFICIALLY LEFT 8 PPL IN OUR SQUAD... :/
AND BY NEXT SECOND HALF OF THE YEAR...
WE'LL LEFT 6 PPL.. :(
AWWS.. GONNA DIE TERRIBLY.. :/
Nvm, we must duo duo jiayou!
make our seniors pround of us even though our squad is small! x) <33
alright, thursday family day outing..
got public duty with junwei..
so weird de..
finally realised i've always spelled weird wrongly! ><
aiyos..
but other squadmates must help out also wors!! :X
pray pretty pretty hard that nobody would get injured.. :(
i scared ><
haiz. nth much to post. but to peckyee: U'RE GONNA BE THE TOP SCHOLAR FROM THE FRONT! IT'S A MUST!!! :D
.Saturday, October 20, 2007 ' 1:39 PM Y
& I'm waiting
hahas. ying hui say its a happy happy day!
yes it is.
but im having a terrible headache.
makes it unhappy liao.
and ytd is a very very very happy cca ^^
hahas. shall not elaborate.
wanna log off liao.
wanna go sleep. :X
hahs. hope my headache goes away soon..
and i wun sleep de anyways.
:X
.Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ' 8:38 PM Y
& I'm waiting
wahahaha. 62 posts. not bad luhs? zzz
nth to do.
wanted to check mail for the choral script.
aiis.
2moro have to miss the whole captain's ball match. ):
i did rather go for that instead of teaching first aid to 105 lorhs.. :X
loved playing captain's ball?
hahas, partly becos of bball influence last time bahs.
and angeline has phobia of balls..
and i almost hit her?
sorryyy! >< wasn't on purpose de! dui bu qi ):
2moro have to teach first aid.
and it's gonna be a boring lesson.
cos i dun really like 105.
very ahem de lor.
and im gonna be kind of dao?
i scared the practical.
like totally dunno anything later.
i would die terribly.
aiyyaaaaaas.
sian lahs.
did quite badly for eoys to me ><
the eoy maths was the worst maths i've ever done lah.
dunno wth i was thinking at tt time.
keep cancelling here and there.
all the careless mistakes all and there.
haiz.. =/
just caught a cold.
stupid fan made me sneeze more.
forgot to turn it off until i sneezed then realise ><
but nvms, the rain was always nice ^^.
hahas.. and the love sky person is really calean wor.
she's always so clever..zz
hahas. like tt also guess right! (:
okay. talking lots of crap.
shall go now.
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我爱的永远是你，这将不会改变。。
.Thursday, October 11, 2007 ' 6:20 PM Y
& I'm waiting
hahs. bored. im starting to get emo again.
aiya. like anybody care.
anyways, found a person who admires the sky like me too!
hahas. shall post all the skies photos here if i have the mood next time.
.Monday, October 8, 2007 ' 5:51 PM Y
& I'm waiting
HOHO! I'M A GOOD GOOD TEDDY!
SHALL DO THE 'QUIZ' WHICH I PASSED TO TEDDY.. ==
OKAYS OKAYS..
(the person who tagged you is)
s-willa-cum-cotton teddy!
(your relationship with her is)
teddy/squadmates/friendssss [hehes, i just copied everything from her blog, dun need change much!! xD]
(5 impressions you have of her)
1.she's OPTIMISTIC, VERY OPTIMISTIC, THE MOST OPTIMISTIC ONE
2.obsessing over _ _ _ (as i've said earlier, i dun need change much! xD)
3.nicee
4.TEDDY!
5.ShE iS a nice person u can LOVE! :D
(the most memorable thing she has done for you)
lots n lots wor.. esp during cca.. (:
(the most memorable thing she has said to you)
520! ;D
(if she becomes you lover, you will)
love her with the whole of my heart (:
(if she becomes your lover, things she has to improve is)
always stay optimistic? :X i can't console ppl well! >.<
(if she becomes you enemy, you will)
i will never let that happen and it won't too.. (:
(if she becomes you enemy, the reason will be)
told u wun happen le ma!
(the most desirable thing you want to do for her is)
love her more and try to write longer letters??? .___>
(your overall impression of her is)
an optimistic teddy that i can love (:
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Hehe. done done.
But i'm a bad teddy.
actualy haven study yet.
yea yea, 2moro last exam----maths
so im happy and sort of slacking? o.O
aiya.. i dunno la..
shall promise myself to study right after this!
teddy can do it!(:
i got more xing xin now le luhs teddy!
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Hoho.. exam almost over la bah..
ALL THE BEST FOR THE REST OF THE EXAMS TO ALL OF U!!
JIAYOU HOR!!
TO 'SOMEBODY': dun really wish that u get 4 A1s, cos i'd owe u a kiss then. but aiya..nvm ba.. :X shall give u an unexpected kiss.. == shall tell u next time! xD JIAYOU FOR UR EXAM HOR! DUN DISAPPOINT EEYORE AND BAO BAO! x) <33
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Haha.. why am i drawing so many lines and starting the paragraphs with hehe, hoho and haha? i dunno. i'm just bored? o.O seems like 2moro only sec 1s need come to school wor. wun the sch be very empty by then? dunno eh. maybe not only sec1 ba.. is teddy say to. cannot blame me if it didn't turns out so! :X
Hehes.. exams almost over le lor~ HAPPY HAPPY! ;D
must mug for my maths later..
guess i've too much confidence for maths ><
NONO~ I CANNOT! MUST STILL STUDY! ><
Hoho. heard that the PSLE this year like some hard some easy de wor.. o.o
my tutor say the maths very hard, but peckyee says it's quite okay wor..
and of course, their chinese was damn easy like hell la..!
okays, i dunno about science.. but well..
many of them ended their psle today except for those with HMT.. [higher mother tongue, dun mistook it as _________ - erhem erhem. :X]
well, good luck to those taking hmt anyways.
wow, tt's random. but i dunno anyone taking hmt... == zz
wonder how my pri sch juniors did.. o.O
my chinese teacher keep saying this year de p6 like very cham like tt..
but guess there wont be much problem bahs.. since chinese so easy..:X
oh yea, hope i have juniors next year whom i know in audi or from my pri sch? xD
lalalalala. i think i'm talkng alot wors. dunno eh. bored. since so long never post le wor. shall talk and talk. but i cannot think of anything else to say le? :X
haha..
Calean: Hehes.. more smileys for u!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Willa: cannot think of anything when trying to write to u longer letters wor... SORRY! ><
shall really slack after exam 2moro! (:
i go le bah. must save time to mug! :X
JIAYOUEE!!~~~~~~
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u're always loved by me.. (:
.Thursday, October 4, 2007 ' 2:33 PM Y
& I'm waiting
YEPP! Today's Angela and Angel Katherine's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BOTH OF THEM!
AND TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE, JIAYOU FOR EOYS!! DO UR BEST! (((: