.Saturday, November 10, 2007 ' 8:39 PM Y
& I'm waiting
made up a stupid script for farewell party.
wells, they accepted it, somehow. :/
but i need to 分手with teddy..
I DUN WAN TOO!..
and regret putting the song 分手快乐 there.
cos i just got tt experience again.
and the feeling is horrible.
it's not at all kuai le.. )):
it really broke my heart.
xin hen tong ni zhi dao mah?
dan ni shuo wo men ying gai zhi zhuo shi fu he tu di.
dan wo de xin yi lie le.
shui ran zhe zhi shi zai yi chang you xi li, dan wo dui ni hai shi you dian zhen gan qing de.
dan guo le bu jiu, wo ye ying gai hui song shou fang kai..
ni ying gai ye shi ba ta dang chang you xi ba le bah..
my heart was once heart broken again.. waiting for someone to mend it again,
but i guess it won't be tt easy..
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got N.................C.................O..............C today.
p.s, this is to prevent et from searching at google. :X
well, yh is COURSE I/C next week..
well, still hope everything goes well for her..
hmms, since this blog only got charmeleon jie jie reading at times,
doesnt really matter if i speak the truth here..? :/
haiz, had a bad day today.
my heart felt like emo-ing.
but i started going high not wanting to disappoint sqdms and make them boring.
and everytime i looked at her doing her own things,
ppl talking to her also dun reply,
anyhow dao ppl, emo-ing.
i feel horrible.
feel tt she very guo fen.
she only talks to willa.
only thinks tt willa gives her concern.
but how about us?
waiting outside the toilet for her,
becos she cried and halfway ran out of classroom,
when sec 2s presenting to ncos?
and in the end, she chased us away.
oh, well done.
and i have this feeling from reading her blog,
tt she keeps saying got ppl say her stupid and useless or whatever is me.
okay watever, and i try so hard to encourage using an unknown name at her blog.
so what.
i bet if she finds out it's me,
she's gonna freakingly lock her blog and sort of ignore my tags anymore.
whatever.
my temper is getting worse when i typed all these out.
and felt so ahem today.
after ncoc, she disappeared.
with our squad waiting outside for so long with our berets on.
and i casually remarked tt maybe she went to change with mel they all.
and in the end, i hit the spot.
wow, so pro right. zzz
like sugar lah.
cannot say tt word in another form of excrement.
im trying to get rid of tt stupid habit influenced by her
hopefully she doesn't rad my blog.
cos she would really get angry wif me and EMO again.
yup, E-M-O.
EMO.
horrible.
she said the Sir like shouting at them behind,
then she thought tt she need to change before coming out of hq.
and so she did with mel they all.
and now et is spamming my msn, cos im blogging and couldn't stop.
haha. she promised to teach me how to disable blog search (:
then change url and gib her the new one.
then charmeleon jie jie will lose my url!
muahahha.
shen jing bing..
zz
okays, talk about this morning.
she asked me to wait for her at interchange and go together cos she feels weird.
so i waited.
and never once was she on time.
maybe once
can't remember.
haha. change change!
okay, so she was late again.
i called her house,
just to make sure she DID wake up.
but she didnt.
she called back and say she woke her late.
then mel ask her to go wif her.
so she ps me.
simple? yes.
i sound like sir donkey or whoever or whatever.
and angie and some seniors was at bk eating.
and they saw us walking past.
so jeraldine and angie came out.
then she was walking with her BESTIE and HER NICE NICE NICEST GROUPMATE
at the other side.
so angie asked why we always like leave her out.
i almost really snap at angie.
SORRY!
couldn't hold my temper.
like wat et said, it's a bad feeling being misunderstood, or rather maglined.
okay, watever, im kinda bad at my spelling.
so yea yea.
and she dao me.
so i was trying to make the qi fen better talking to them.
and then she started emo.
EMO.
yup. E-M-O AGAIN.
emo kid sia. whatever lah.
fine, she was so high on the mrt talking to willa.
and me sounding like an outsider was trying to add in or whatever.
then after alighted, she emo again.
wow, so random sia.
she dao us.
now is us.
WILLA PLUS ME.
we were walking in hdb hub towards the lobby.
then me and willa stopped.
cos yh walking in front then we talk to her she also dao us.
and she just continue walk walk walk.
so we followed quite far behind.
she didnt turn back.
reading her NCOC notes.
wow.
so scared of being course ic.
whatever lah.
why i keep using whatever today.
cos i feel very whatever.
whatever.
zzz
so when we caught up with her.
she dao us, still staring at her ncoc notes.
okay, dun feel like saying anymore.
cos et keep chasing me to finish my post...
zzz.
dun feel like changing my blogskin.
cos im tired of spending so long time trying to make it perfect and nice.
well, im quite a perfectionist at CERTAIN things.
hope next course would be better.
hope.
i HOPE.
[edited]haha. saw my post on my blog. maybe not tt long. got write longer one b4.anyway, my font is quite big![edited]