I've been living with a shadow overhead, I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, Just in case I ever need them again someday, I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
[Chorus] All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it true without a way back into love. Oooooh.
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but i just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there, There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
I've been looking for someone to shed some light, Not somebody just to get me through the night, I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.
All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. And if I open my heart again, I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end! Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end! Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
2 days after break camp! i've been slacking away! SERIOUSLY SLACKING! have to study for exam. but i just refuse to do so? becos i feel very relaxed after camp!! wahahaha.
hope everything goes well for moi and exam bah! JIAYOU SQDMS~ JIAYOU BRAVO~ JIAYOU STANDARD!! WE'LL DO IT TOGETHER! (:
ehh. nth to blog about, honestly! >< reach home quite late today!! and i seriously think tt i broke my record todayy! cos skip breakfast and lunch. then 9 then eat dinner :X but afternoon got eat a currypuff, but i was like 2 plus plus tt time? haha. then came home still not hungry ((:
AND I HATE ALL MY SLIPPERS. SERIOUSLY. ALL HATE ME ALSO DE LAH. ALWAYS GOT WOUNDS/BLISTERS. GOT ANOTHER ONE TODAY. BECOS I THINK THE SLIPPERS TOO BIG. THEN WALK WALK WALK VERY PAIN CAN. SOMEMORE WE WALKED SO FAR!!! ><
haha. so today went to find dexterous ppl today. cos mel said they got lost in TOA PAYOH. THE CENTRAL THERE. CANT BELIEVE IT CAN. :X but yea. stayed until quite late.
crapped quite alot with her. i guess we're better now. if we could just hang on and remain like tis.
ooo. AND WE SAW CL EILEEN TODAY.! I TOTALLY FREAKED OUT CAN!!! I WAS LIKE HIDING BEHIND MY PAPER. PRETENDING TO TALK TO YU TING. WA LIAO. SHE SUDDENLY POP OUT LIKE TT LAH. AND SHE WEAR UNTIL VERY CASUAL EHH. SAW HER AT CITY LINK MALL. COS WE WENT THERE BUY DRINKS.
yup. guess tt's all for today :// hao bah. nitez eileen :D
i guess i'll leave everything as it is from now. cos i've no intention of like patching up wif her or so. becos since she's so pissed up wif me. i shall not do anything else. and i would just tear tt letter up and throw it away. pretend tt nth had happened. and i think she knows tt i found her blog. tt's why she changed her url. probably becos she saw my msn name bahh. i cut my hair!! sort of for camp! and for eileen too~ then we can have long hair during sec 3! x)
haha. at group meeting ytd at Cheryl's house. PAINTING TIME! I THINK OUR FLAG SERIOUSLY TURNED OUT QUITE WELL CAN. EXCEPT FOR THE FACT WHEN THE THINNER RAN OUT. AND OUR HANDS ARE STILL ALL COVERED WITH PAINT. BECOS WE PRINTED OUR HANDPRINTS :X OTHER THAN TT STILL QUITE OKAYY! MET THEM AT YEW TEE MRT BEFORE GOING CHERYL'S HOUSE. THEN SAW JERALDINE. IT"S LIKE OMG CAN. ANS SHE WAS LIKE SUDDENLY OH!! U CUT UR HAIR! laaa. anything lahh.
today went to hang out wif pri sch frens at blk 9!! quite fun. at least we got to talk quite a bit. ((:
hao le, nth much. im suppose to be hardworking today! but i slacked away ><~ cannot cannot. i shall go check my camp things later. then if dun have anything. then 2moro go buy wif sqms. (:
used to be:
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---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;
Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.
For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.
And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.