hmm. im too lazy to post about malacca trip. lazy to upload photos. :B
ahhhs. just watched the mv of cai hong. cos need learn for camp. and i started crying after realising wad the mv meant. it's like i dun even know wad the lyrics meant, then now know le feel so sad. >< xin hen suan...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAh_K4yb-k0 right, u can watch tt. and the mv was actually about a very sweet couple, but then the guy finds out he has cancer and is going to die... he writes a fake letter saying he had been accepted into a university, in the hope of leaving and not hurting her. after the guy leaves on the bus, he leaves his diary with the girl, explaining all that had happened.
the message at the beginning was his last diary entry before he left, saying if he had another opportunity, he wishes he had never met her...
its a really sad song =(
yeah. guess some things just dun go your way in life.
彩虹 by Jay Chou
哪裡有彩虹告訴我 Na li you cai hong gao su wo Can someone inform me where the rainbow is?
能不能把我的願望還給我 Neng bu neng ba wo de yuan wang huan gei wo Can you return my wish back to me?
為什麼天這麼安靜 Wei shen me tian zhe mo an jing Why is the sky still so calm?
所有的雲都跑到我這裡 Suo you de yun dou bao dao wo zhe li All the clouds have amassed above me
##有沒有口罩一個給我 You mei you kou zhao yi ge gei wo Do you have a spare face mask to lend me?
釋懷說了太多就成真不了 Shi huai shuo le tai duo jiu cheng zhen bu liao Because I said too much, now it will not eventuate
也許時間是一種解藥 Ye xu shi jian shi yi zhong jie yao Maybe time is an antidote
也是我現在正服下的毒藥 Ye shi wo xian zai zheng fu xia de du yao Or the poison I’m taking right now
看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡得著 Kan bu jian ni de xiao wo zen me shui de zhao Without seeing your smile, how can I sleep?
你的身影這麼近我卻抱不到 Ni de shen ying zhe me jin wo que bao bu dao Your shadow is so close yet I cannot hug you
沒有地球太陽還是會繞 Mei you di qiu tai yang hai shi hui rao The sun will continue orbiting even without the Earth existing
沒有理由我也能自己走 ## Mei you li you wo ye neng zi ji zou I can walk away (from you) without a reason
**你要離開 我知道很簡單 Ni yao li kai wo zhi dao hen jian dan You want to leave, I know it is (a) simple (thing)
你說依賴 是我們的阻礙 Ni shuo yi lai shi wo men de zu ai You said reliance was the major barrier between us
就算放開 那能不能別沒收我的愛 Jiu suan fang kai na neng bu neng bie mo shou wo de ai If I choose to let go, that cannot remove my love for you
當作我最後才明白 ** Dang zuo wo zui hou cai ming bai I’ll just pretend that I understand in the end
Repeat ## **
RAP 看不見你的笑要我怎麼睡得著 Kan bu jian ni de xiao yao wo zen me shui de zhao Without seeing your smile, how can I sleep?
你的身影這麼近我卻抱不到 Ni de shen ying zhe me jin wo que bao bu dao Your shadow is so close yet I cannot hug you
沒有地球太陽開始會繞…會繞 Mei you di qiu tai yang kai shi hui rao … hui rao The sun will continue orbiting even without the Earth existing…orbiting
沒有理由我也能自己走掉 Mei you li you wo ye neng zi ji zou diao I can abandon you without a reason
是我說了太多就成真不了 Shi wo shuo le tai dou jiu cheng zhen bu liao Because I said too much, now it will not eventuate
也許時間是一種解藥…解藥 Ye xu shi jian shi yi zhong jie yao… jie yao Maybe time is an antidote… antidote
也是我現在正服下的毒藥 Ye shi wo xian zai zheng fu xia de du yao Or the poison I’m taking right now
boo. im in sch now. BACK FROM MALACCA ON WED NIGHT! :D Heh. malacca trip was chao fun and memorable. okay. shall post more in detail when i have time at home. skittles meeting now. :D and i have two packets of skittles in my bag. :X okay. gtg JIAYOU SKITTLES. :D
SKITTLES!! Oh my. im being so pessimistic-cum-moody-cum-emo these few days =\ but i seriously think we have a damn low chance of getting best group ): AHHS. NVM. I shall work double hard this holidays. so tt when holiday is over, IT'S MY BDAY! xD AHAHHA. shen jing bing. -.- okay, JIAYOU SKITTLES! We can do it together. :D
Suddenly felt so "reflective" again after visiting gina's blog. somehow, i just feeling like going back to my pri sch. Like the used to be cheerful slack slack life of an innocent pri sch girl. i dun mind remaining at p6. it was one of the best years i enjoyed studying and playing together with my friends. time just seems to pass so fast. It's almost 2 years already..
still think tt although we do quarrel about frens and such in pri sch, i still think it's much better than the horrible busy life in ny, It's just so different. and makes people wanna go back to the past
esp when we were p6, somehow we are more matured, although we do childish stuff but it's just so fun, and memorable. And lesser quarrels and more of cherishing the time left together. and now secondary sch, everything seems so diff and everything seems to have something for u to worry. Homework, SIAs, Block tests, 3rd lang, CCA, friendships, etc. it is just too much for a 14-tobe young girl. or may be not in such a fast-advancing world, we have to do it. What much choice do we have? and i certainly think that the arena had a good motion, and that is "Science is advancing too fast for the good of society". i support tt motion. and technologies are advancing too fast too. It's just too fast, for all of us to slow down our pace, and take a look at the people around us, as well as the love, and of course the lovely things, that we always miss to see when living such a busy life. I feel like stopping. Just stopping for a day or so is enough.
If everything could go back the same.. but of course, it's not possible Time waits for no man, if u did realise one day. But just spend that few minutes to be with ur loved ones, it's sth that u will regret for life if u do not. and i shall dedicate a few lines to people. :D
To person 1: You had always cheered me up and make me feel that you were there for me. I know you don't know that i treat u as one of my best friends, but you were as precious as a gem in my life, and i certainly thank you for being part of my life. Life without you would not be tt interesting and enjoyable. Even though we are now apart from each other, you will always have a place in my heart. I promise. (:
To person 2: Despite me thinking tt u were doing a lot of irrelevant and silly stuff last time, I still treat you as one of my best friends too, you brought much joy to my life. :D The quarrels you had were all becos of me, and that made me feel important and so "valuable" to someone. Hope to catch up with much stuff with you someday. And i guess we will be closer by then. (:
To person 3: You had used to be a very nice friend, until something happened. From that day onwards, i realise all that you have been saying was just a lie. But i still thank you for that. I realise that it wasn't that fun to be with you after all, and i really hope that you will change back to your old self. But that's kinda impossible now. Still, thankyou for everything u did for me. (:
To person 4: We had always been quarrelling about this and that, but as days passed and we matured, you are much nicer to me now. Thank you for all the company these years and i hope we will get closer. (:
To person 5: Even if you did not realise, you had been one of the most important people in my life. To me, i can almost tell you everything about me, and what i hope in return is nothing, but encouragement. You have never really failed to cheer me up, but somtimes your attitude make me feel very sad. Still, i will bear with it, becos you are really tt impt to me. (:
To person 6: Although u had lied to me alot of times, and the reason is unknown to me. I still cherish the time we had together. It seems as i need not worry abt some stuff with you, unlike with others. I just hope that you would change for the better, and we are still good friends with all the romantic stuff. (:
To person 7: You had been a great support and company to me, and im glad i got to know you. But sometimes your attitude just makes me feel bad/sad, although u dun really realise it. Maybe it's just becos i tend to hide everything to myself. Still, there were many happy memories when we go high together. (:
To person 8: You had always been a very trustworthy friend! Just that i think we're not that close after all, but it has always been great to be with you and laugh. :D I thank you for many beautiful and happy memories and for all your help. (:
To person 9: You're my angel! :D Heh, im really grateful that i got such a nice angel and that's you! You seem to always be secretly watching me or sth, just like an angel. Your encouragement had never failed to motivate me, and thank you for all the presents! (:
To person 10: Although i cant be that close to you, i still enjoyed having all the long long crappy chats with you! It has always been so funny and enjoyable. And hope that you would cheer up and become much more stornger! (:
To person 11: HEH! ZEN! :D Hmm, it was nice to have met u in audi! And fun to write long long letters to each other and talking about so much stuff. :D Must get well soon kay! And stop worsening ur injury! D: I'll be watching you! HEH. (:
To person 12: HAOQING! HEH. You naughty little mortal. :X SO long le haven reply. ppl very disappointed eh. >< Ahhs, and sorry about ur present. I was too lazy to bring it to sch. I will send to ur class on my BDAY! xDD LOL. (:
To person 13: :D It was fun to always play soft toy with you! Cos u're always the willing one. :D It was nice to have you as a fren, cos you dun really complain much even when you overheard some of our convos. ): Sorry! And i hope we can become closer, and jiayou for ur studies! :D
To person 14: You ego ego person! Heh. you very qian zhou at times, but i wun hit you, i promise. -.- Hmm, i was glad to have you in my life as a nice nice fren! :D Eh, i dunno wad to say, but thank you! (:
To person 15: HEH. It was nice to have known u through internet! I can always tell u stuff and crap together. AI NI! :D (:
To person 16: HEY YOU! Cheer up and dun emo kayy! I'll be there to try and help solve ur problems if i can! It's nice to have known u! (:
To person 17: You have always been so encouraging and nice! Im extremly grateful for sure to have known u, some more it's through internet. Thanks for all the concern and encouragement! (:
To person 18: BOO! NU ER! :D Heh. Thanks for everything girl! You have always made my day a happy one becos u're lame! xD Not becos u cannot run eh! LOL. AI NI NU ER~ (:
To person 19: DESKMATE! HEH! Thanks for all the help in studies u clever little girl! :D And stop poking and hitting my head. .__." If not i'll poke u back! xDD POKE POKE. (:
To person 20: MUMMY! LOVE YOU FOREVER! :D HEH. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ESP YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT! ((: AI NI YI BEI ZI~ (:
To person 21: You better shut up now before i flare up. I dun wanna lose my temper anymore. Stop venting your anger on me. I hate tt pls. Stop it. It's not as if i want to study so hard and skip my dinner or wad. IF I HAD ANOTHER CHOICE, I WOULD HAVE CHOOSE NOT TO STUDY AND JUST EAT ALL MY MEALS.
gtg. ****
a dream for everything to go back to the same. an impossible dream but it's never wrong and harmful to dream eh! heh. (:
cca today again. my abrasion wound worsened. the whole wound opened up again. and it bled, again. and i got another blister at my heel there, again. all becos of my boots, again. hello boots. i know u love my blood and love to see me in pain. but hor, my black socks doesnt like my blood. and i don't too. so pls stop cutting my leg lah. kns. i feel so weak lately.
was moody today.. perhaps im just seeking attention . forget it. i guess it's hard to really know my real character. becos, i dunno myself too.
trying to be as jian qiang as i could. but it isn't so easy to always smile and hide ur true feelings.
and to you: even if nobody ever told you that you suck, dun think u rock pls. i can't stand tt idiotic proud arrogant attitude of u. everybody is diff, we dun have to be like you. cos we are not named after u, we are not ur twin or whatsoever. we are different individuals.
i wanna quit and let go of everything now. but some things are just pulling me back. and i can't. but i wan to, really nobody just seems to.. understand
i have to pull through this. it's not my choice at all. it's rather a must
Went sch today. had pe first lesson. service assessment. omg. i sux at service can. so gonna fail my volleyball module. okay, i failed it alr. theory test for volleyball. i only got like 2 or 3 questions correct out of 9/10 questions? cant remember. i forgot wad is the 3 hit sequence can. oh my. but after all it's pe. dun get too stressed up about pe kayy yh! :D must stay happppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. WEES.
oh yeah. continue talking about pe. was helping out to pick balls. then huiqi finished her assessment and came to help. then she kept snatching our balls. dunno wad she wan to do that for. then i was running towards a ball. then she came "clashing" over just to snatch the ball. so we both fell. she was okay. but now i have 3 abrasion wounds and 2 contusion wounds. abrasion on my left knee, and contusion on my right knee. (they were on diff areas, like a few patches. .__.''') oh man. now it's like intense stinging pain. although it is not chemical burn then i never put plaster at all. just left it there like that for the whole day. now also. .__. we tried to retake our service assessment. but i did even worse. zzzz. wth lah. i just couldnt hit the ball properly luhs!!!!!!! GAHS. oh man. i sux. okay. forget it. i shall not dwell on pe. then we were late for la lesson because of retake. then we ran up to M4-04(the drama room) because there's la sia poetry presentation. btw, sia is NOT SIA(as in not pronounced as seah;not the "slang language") it stands for STUDENT INITIATED ASSESSMENT> which is not really we initiate one. and it basically is projects. it's idiotic. D: then our group is last to present, so nth much to worry about today. so yeah. whole class wanted the lesson for rehearsal. so mdm oehlers allowed us to. so 2moro must go earlier during recess to start presentation for all groups. recess; printed history essay. then...... after recess was math lesson. listened to other groups math sia presentation. our group is last. AHAHA. so lucky. x) lollll. then yeah, left our group never present. so we staying back on thursday after school to present to miss teng. hmmmmmmmmms. then physics. glad the quiz is on thursday. cos i didnt study ytd luhs. and mr tan seems okay with us handing up our physics sia today. oh man. i hope we do better for it? >:( very worried. lunch drill. didn't do drill. stood at the side with junwei. her foot injured; she banged into a chair at her fren's house. \= kong bu >< then me didnt do cos of my abrasion wound. keep bending and straightening my knee very pain lor. so yeah, only commanded. my commanding is horrible as usual. >after lunch drill was chinese lesson! WE WATCHED MOVIE! For wen hua xin shang. :D OMG. i love the movie. It's 变脸, King of Masks. so cool luhs. and i think i watched it before. somehow, it all looks familiar. :D yeah, class contact time then the whole class cleaned up the classroom. :D was helping si-si to hold the dust pan. then i was like stalking her around. -.- while she swept the floor. :X then the floor like super dirty lor. p.s.our class is always dirty and in a mess. :XX yupppp. then room duty. then we rehearsed for la presentation. then ate. then went to popular at toa payoh interchange with yh. bought an essay book. :D yh bought some assessments, hardworking her. :D unlike me. :X i just typed and typed and realised i didnt leave space. sorry luhs. i very lazy one. i think spacing after each line easier to read. if not all in one paragraph; read le wan die.
OH YEAH. YH SAID I MADE SINGAPORE SNOWED TODAY! SO COOL RIGHT. xDD
and to jaton: it's not that i wan poke myself okay. it's because i too tired liao, imagining urself trying to make one stupid wind-up car model which doesnt work for 9 hours. then the rubber band when released too much energy le mah. so the satay stick just poked through my thumb. not right through. as in the side of the nail there. now there's like "blood clot" inside. it's red red de. D: oh my.
stupid adwebs. keep popping up when i blogging. D: so irritating. gahhhh. hmmmmmm. no homework today. i shall try and reply letters! :D owe too many ppl letters, like angel katherine, zen, yh, willa. but hao qing owes me letter. xDD but still gonna write to her anyways. cos her birthday was on 10th May. then i bought her present. so must write to her then can put in her class. :D oo. almost 7 le. da chang jin is ending. haha, the show very niceee. <3 it. :D hmmmmmm. okay. nothing else to write about. shall end here today. was reading yueqi's msn nick. it says "I am stupid" so i changed my nick to "Nobody is stupid" :D hahaha. really mah! ny ppl where got stupid oneeeee! btw, JIAYOU PPL! ^^ <3 you all. :D
didnt go sch today. sick. think i didnt even sleep a tiny bit last night. projects and projects. kns. im wasting time. i shouldnt be wasting. dun feel like going for 3rd lang later. should i? maybe i should. but i dun wan to. D: stones. now i have nothing to do. apparently angela and jiawen didnt send me anything for physics sia. and so i have nth to do. packed my chi file, yet to fill that stupid content page. shortened reflections for poem for la sia. stone. played audi for near 2 hours. waiting for them to send me the physics report. but i got nothing in the end. .__." i should do my history essay. but too sian to do. D: my thumb is hurting every moment even if i dun touch it. was trying to make the windup car for physics ytd. from 12 to 9. i wanna die. in the end it didnt work. great. i wasted 9 hours for nothing. some more i kept poking myself(becos of the toothpicks and satay stick) and i kept bleeding. well, not really bleed alot. those very very minor bleeding. how much blood can u get from a poke? -.- i think i poked THROUGH the side of my thumb there. cos ytd it was bleeding, then applied pressure. it stopped bleeding. midnight. couldnt sleep. and my thumb started hurting every second. got out of bed and decided to do zuo wen since i couldnt sleep. mum said my zuo wen was very luo shuo. i dunno wad to do about my chi zuo wens alr. it's getting from bad to worse. mum woke me up this morning. had a very bad headache and fever. decided not to go school. i was eating sushi with the thumb with injury. and i realised i was eating the ointment too. -.- ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs. fucking projects. D: stupid lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i wanna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. okay. maybe i should make good use of the time now and do history. okay. I MUST. i must do it.
I am my own believer In my heart the reason I will follow the light from within I'm not afraid of weakness I'm gonna taste the sweetness Of the power not to give in Oh~ I will see it through I believe this is the moment of truth
Dare to dream Dare to fly Dare to be the heir, the chosen one to touch the sky Dare to reach Dare to rise Find the strength to set my spirit free Dare to dream
I will go the distance Embrace resistance I will lay my soul on the line When the wait is over And the hunger is spoken If I give my all I will shine Oh ~ I will see it through I believe this is the moment of truth
Dare to dream Dare to fly Dare to be the heir, the chosen one to touch the sky Dare to reach Dare to rise Find the strength to set my spirit free Dare to dream
And my heart will shine like the sun A million voices together as one I believe, I believe, I believe, I believe
Dare to dream Dare to fly Dare to be the heir, the chosen one to touch the sky Dare to reach Dare to rise Find the strength to set my spirit free
Dare to dream Dare to fly Dare to be the heir, the chosen one to touch the sky Dare to reach Dare to rise Find the strength to set my spirit free Find the strength to set my spirit free
Find the strength to do what I believe I believe~ Dare to dream Dare to dream
edited. :D sorry luhs, copied and pasted the lyrics from some website, so never see. =X
boo. so long never update alr. D: oh my. suppose to me creating my poem now. but apparently, i can't do it without yh's help. and i realised our class all chao good at poetry luhs!! EXCEPT ME. -.- gah lah. i sux at lit. i sux at english. i sux at la. ><
hmms. today last music lesson. and mrs ho was talking about how she felt that she has never taught our class like that. cos we missed lots of music lessons luhh. like out of 8 weeks this term, only got 4 lessons or sth with her. .__." but nvm, mrs ho is nice <3 o ur co-form teacher. =D and we got 39 out of 50 for our music project!! WELL DONE GROUP! SO WELL DONE WITHOUT ANY MUSICAL BACKGROUND!! :D WEEEEE. then we were singing "Dare To Dream" like we also never learn the song. cos no time mahh. then like left 5 mins only. so Mrs Ho let us sang it. :D i love the songggg! It rox. ^^
2.4km todayy! 14:50 HOHO! WELL DONE MYSELF! :D improve by like 30secs. not bad le. :D aiyah, i dunno why i stopped at the last round. as in stopped running. should have continued lorrr. but nvm. ^^ i'll do better next yearrrr~
german testtt... oh man. i flunked it. i flunked the listening. it was so hard lor. and i didn't know the other page still got ques. so i missed out 3 ques for listening. grrrrs. aiyah. sux lah. gonna fail it. >so dead. ):
and hope seniors dun emo lee~ very aiyah. >< dunno how to say. =\ BUT CHEER UP SENIORS! <3
it kinda affects me now, even though i dunno wad really happened..
BUT I'LL STILL BE ALL SMILEYS! :D JIAYOU PEOPLE~ get on with life. HAPPILY. :D
and perhaps labour day is just another day for us "pathetic labourers" to do more homework and projects. and to do them to achieve nothing. what's the whole damn idiotic point?
sian. i feel lost. just wth is wrong with this world. so much work to do. and u finish the work for ur marks. and u get ur marks for ur studies. and u study for the sake of having a good job. and u have a good job for earning money. and u earn money for ur family and for ur comfort. and in the end it's all for living in this world. but what the hell do we students work so hard for. all the chim chim syllabus. that doesnt even come to any use in the harsh world when u grow up. make sense huh. what is all the hard work for? for the school to achieve more fame? and what do u get from fame? ppl suck up to u? u practically just achieve NOTHING in the very end.
but even if u realise all these, can u dun work hard? no. cos u need to catch up with others. catch up with the whole world. maybe technologies and this world is advancing too fast. for the good of students.
and what happen when u can't catch up. u're just being left behind. being so pathetic. who will want tt? Nobody. and pride is the thing tt might just kill all of us one day.
used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;
Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.
For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.
And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.