cca today again.
my abrasion wound worsened.
the whole wound opened up again.
and it bled, again.
and i got another blister at my heel there, again.
all becos of my boots, again.
hello boots.
i know u love my blood and love to see me in pain.
but hor, my black socks doesnt like my blood.
and i don't too.
so pls stop cutting my leg lah.
kns.
i feel so weak lately.

was moody today..
perhaps im just seeking attention .
forget it.
i guess it's hard to really know my real character.
becos, i dunno myself too.

trying to be as jian qiang as i could.
but it isn't so easy to always smile and hide ur true feelings.

and to you:
even if nobody ever told you that you suck, dun think u rock pls.
i can't stand tt idiotic proud arrogant attitude of u.
everybody is diff,
we dun have to be like you.
cos we are not named after u,
we are not ur twin or whatsoever.
we are different individuals.

i wanna quit and let go of everything now.
but some things are just pulling me back.
and i can't.
but i wan to, really
nobody just seems to..
understand

i have to pull through this.
it's not my choice at all.
it's rather a must

THAT LADYY

` Luping
` Amethyst (Ame)
` 22

` 6H'06 FTPPS
` 104'07 204'08 302'09 402'10 NYGH
` 11S6A HCJC
` NTU

`ELF, Primadonna, F迷, JM and much more

used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;


Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.

For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.

And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.

HER PASTY

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