sian.
i feel lost.
just wth is wrong with this world.
so much work to do.
and u finish the work for ur marks.
and u get ur marks for ur studies.
and u study for the sake of having a good job.
and u have a good job for earning money.
and u earn money for ur family and for ur comfort.
and in the end it's all for living in this world.
but what the hell do we students work so hard for.
all the chim chim syllabus.
that doesnt even come to any use in the harsh world when u grow up.
make sense huh.
what is all the hard work for?
for the school to achieve more fame?
and what do u get from fame?
ppl suck up to u?
u practically just achieve NOTHING in the very end.

but even if u realise all these,
can u dun work hard?
no.
cos u need to catch up with others.
catch up with the whole world.
maybe technologies and this world is advancing too fast.
for the good of students.

and what happen when u can't catch up.
u're just being left behind.
being so pathetic.
who will want tt?
Nobody.
and pride is the thing tt might just kill all of us one day.

i want to hate this life.
but i can't

THAT LADYY

` Luping
` Amethyst (Ame)
` 22

` 6H'06 FTPPS
` 104'07 204'08 302'09 402'10 NYGH
` 11S6A HCJC
` NTU

`ELF, Primadonna, F迷, JM and much more

used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;


Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.

For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.

And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.

HER PASTY

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