.Wednesday, May 21, 2008 ' 6:53 PM Y
& I'm waiting
Suddenly felt so "reflective" again after visiting gina's blog.
somehow, i just feeling like going back to my pri sch.
Like the used to be cheerful slack slack life of an innocent pri sch girl.
i dun mind remaining at p6.
it was one of the best years i enjoyed studying and playing together with my friends.
time just seems to pass so fast.
It's almost 2 years already..still think tt although we do quarrel about frens and such in pri sch,
i still think it's much better than the horrible busy life in ny,
It's just so different.
and makes people wanna go back to the pastesp when we were p6,
somehow we are more matured,
although we do childish stuff
but it's just so fun,
and memorable.
And lesser quarrels and more of cherishing the time left together.
and now secondary sch,
everything seems so diff
and everything seems to have something for u to worry.
Homework, SIAs, Block tests, 3rd lang, CCA, friendships, etc.
it is just too much for a 14-tobe young girl.
or may be notin such a fast-advancing world,
we have to do it.
What much choice do we have?
and i certainly think that the arena had a good motion,
and that is "Science is advancing too fast for the good of society".
i support tt motion.
and technologies are advancing too fast too.
It's just too fast,
for all of us to slow down our pace,
and take a look at the people around us,
as well as the love,
and of course the lovely things,
that we always miss to see when living such a busy life.
I feel like stopping.
Just stopping for a day or so is enough.
If everything could go back the same..
but of course, it's not possibleTime waits for no man,
if u did realise one day.
But just spend that few minutes to be with ur loved ones,
it's sth that u will regret for life if u do not.
and i shall dedicate a few lines to people. :D
To person 1:
You had always cheered me up and make me feel that you were there for me. I know you don't know that i treat u as one of my best friends, but you were as precious as a gem in my life, and i certainly thank you for being part of my life. Life without you would not be tt interesting and enjoyable. Even though we are now apart from each other, you will always have a place in my heart. I promise. (:
To person 2:
Despite me thinking tt u were doing a lot of irrelevant and silly stuff last time, I still treat you as one of my best friends too, you brought much joy to my life. :D The quarrels you had were all becos of me, and that made me feel important and so "valuable" to someone. Hope to catch up with much stuff with you someday. And i guess we will be closer by then. (:
To person 3:
You had used to be a very nice friend, until something happened. From that day onwards, i realise all that you have been saying was just a lie. But i still thank you for that. I realise that it wasn't that fun to be with you after all, and i really hope that you will change back to your old self. But that's kinda impossible now. Still, thankyou for everything u did for me. (:
To person 4:
We had always been quarrelling about this and that, but as days passed and we matured, you are much nicer to me now. Thank you for all the company these years and i hope we will get closer. (:
To person 5:
Even if you did not realise, you had been one of the most important people in my life. To me, i can almost tell you everything about me, and what i hope in return is nothing, but encouragement. You have never really failed to cheer me up, but somtimes your attitude make me feel very sad. Still, i will bear with it, becos you are really tt impt to me. (:
To person 6:
Although u had lied to me alot of times, and the reason is unknown to me. I still cherish the time we had together. It seems as i need not worry abt some stuff with you, unlike with others. I just hope that you would change for the better, and we are still good friends with all the romantic stuff. (:
To person 7:
You had been a great support and company to me, and im glad i got to know you. But sometimes your attitude just makes me feel bad/sad, although u dun really realise it. Maybe it's just becos i tend to hide everything to myself. Still, there were many happy memories when we go high together. (:
To person 8:
You had always been a very trustworthy friend! Just that i think we're not that close after all, but it has always been great to be with you and laugh. :D I thank you for many beautiful and happy memories and for all your help. (:
To person 9:
You're my angel! :D Heh, im really grateful that i got such a nice angel and that's you! You seem to always be secretly watching me or sth, just like an angel. Your encouragement had never failed to motivate me, and thank you for all the presents! (:
To person 10:
Although i cant be that close to you, i still enjoyed having all the long long crappy chats with you! It has always been so funny and enjoyable. And hope that you would cheer up and become much more stornger! (:
To person 11:
HEH! ZEN! :D Hmm, it was nice to have met u in audi! And fun to write long long letters to each other and talking about so much stuff. :D Must get well soon kay! And stop worsening ur injury! D: I'll be watching you! HEH. (:
To person 12:
HAOQING! HEH. You naughty little mortal. :X SO long le haven reply. ppl very disappointed eh. >< Ahhs, and sorry about ur present. I was too lazy to bring it to sch. I will send to ur class on my BDAY! xDD LOL. (:
To person 13:
:D It was fun to always play soft toy with you! Cos u're always the willing one. :D It was nice to have you as a fren, cos you dun really complain much even when you overheard some of our convos. ): Sorry! And i hope we can become closer, and jiayou for ur studies! :D
To person 14:
You ego ego person! Heh. you very qian zhou at times, but i wun hit you, i promise. -.- Hmm, i was glad to have you in my life as a nice nice fren! :D Eh, i dunno wad to say, but thank you! (:
To person 15:
HEH. It was nice to have known u through internet! I can always tell u stuff and crap together. AI NI! :D (:
To person 16:
HEY YOU! Cheer up and dun emo kayy! I'll be there to try and help solve ur problems if i can! It's nice to have known u! (:
To person 17:
You have always been so encouraging and nice! Im extremly grateful for sure to have known u, some more it's through internet. Thanks for all the concern and encouragement! (:
To person 18:
BOO! NU ER! :D Heh. Thanks for everything girl! You have always made my day a happy one becos u're lame! xD Not becos u cannot run eh! LOL. AI NI NU ER~ (:
To person 19:
DESKMATE! HEH! Thanks for all the help in studies u clever little girl! :D And stop poking and hitting my head. .__." If not i'll poke u back! xDD POKE POKE. (:
To person 20:
MUMMY! LOVE YOU FOREVER! :D HEH. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ESP YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT! ((: AI NI YI BEI ZI~ (:
To person 21:
You better shut up now before i flare up. I dun wanna lose my temper anymore. Stop venting your anger on me. I hate tt pls. Stop it. It's not as if i want to study so hard and skip my dinner or wad. IF I HAD ANOTHER CHOICE, I WOULD HAVE CHOOSE NOT TO STUDY AND JUST EAT ALL MY MEALS.
gtg.
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a dream for everything to go back to the same. an impossible dream
but it's never wrong and harmful to dream eh! heh. (: