Many things that can't be expressed in a public blog.. But it would be always in my heart. .
Finished my chi sia, chem, cme, geog, math. left german to doo. oh myy. im worried about german. project project. D: well, guess i would just try my besttt. yup.
2days gone alr. and tt kinda feeling is still there. wonder when it would go away..
my bro pissed me off again. like seriously, im always thinking why do i have such a brother. when other ppl's brothers are so nice to them. am i unlucky or wad? but still, nothing can change the fact that he's my brother, right?
been sleeping quite late these few days. compared to other days luh. i totally didnt do anything ytd. like yeah, i jsut stoned the whole day. and only used/play the com a bit at 6 sth ytd, cos my bro just kept playing. i dun understand what's the point of him acting in front of my dad, like yeah, seriously? just do wad u want to do. he dun wan let u play com, then too bad? like if he had worked much harder, would my dad even had to ban him from com and tv? and everytime my dad goes out, he will hook on to the comp or tv. and when my dad's home, he would be like, trying to act guai, do some math work(which was due after hols, but dunno wad happen to his teacher or sth) and read the storybooks i borrowed. but at least it will do him some good. and apparently my mum asked him to return the storybooks i borrowed on fri or thurs(cant rmb(. and then he complained tt the books too heavy or sth. so he took one outtt. so the books were like due ytd. and now, one of the books is overdue. great, he thinks he has lots of money. so he's gonna pay for the fineee. which will always end up to be paid by my mum. -.-
enough about my bro. talking about him is just wasting my time. time to do german.
memories, photos, everything it's always lingering inside my mind and my heart..
SQUAD MONTAGE!! :D i suddenly realised maybe it's not such a good choice to post this here. xD cos got some photos, hmmmmmmmmmmm. maybe i'll get killed by yh on mon. D: if she sees this. memories. :D my "birthday cake" from sqdms! HEH. xD
SQDMS! <3
DUMBO AND RATTY! :D
I think the sky is niceee. (:
EEYORE! :D
RUBIK'S CUBE!
SILOSO! Squad outing in nov/dec last year(:
FLIPPY! :D on my head. x)
Rubik's cubes in my class! we used to be crazy about it. ;D
Eileen's doggy. :D p.s. this is not flippy.
Eileen's bearrr. :D
Eileen's doggy with her bear's dress
and guess wad happened to her bearrr?
this is wad happened! xD
Scenery at our hotel room in malacca! room 706! :D it's a ferris wheel with lights at night. x)
hmm. guess tt's all. :D will upload more if one day i decide to upload the photos in my cam. :D
all these brightens up my life. :D and i love every little part of my lifee. <3
slept at 12 and woke up at 4 ytd. sianz. but feel chao accomplished to finish sqd montage and burn the discs for prcs! They love the sqd tee(: and we love them. ^^
Apologies for the lousy perf and speech.. we aren't very good at words, but wells, action speaks louder than words! so hope tt the presents ke yi pu changggg.
Beautiful bottles, beautiful memories.. (:
short of pictures of another 2 bottles.. didnt have time to take photooo.
we promise we'll be the last to fall, a promise is a promise. (:
YAYYYYY~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~ :D HAHA, I FEEL SO LOVED TODAYY! :D
But well, i still fell sick again. on my bday. how bad can this get? D:
And so sorry SQUADMATES! make u all prepare for nth. D: then in the end i also never go schh! We'll party after parade rehearsal 2moro afternoon kayyy! then we can go weeeeeeeeeeeee~ x)) and take lots of photos! YES. LOTS. we need squad photos~ :D and this time with our dear prcs!
okay. i didnt really manage to finish my hw ytd. and i think i fell sick becos of stress D: gahhs. and i think my mother is very worried. she almost wanted me to quit sj. >< okay, but im not quitting~ and sorry mum! made u so worried. D:
okay. i think i sound v happy in this post! WELL I AM! ;D OH YEAH. i cant believe it cann! I have new kor :D Jason kor. ^^ Eh, dun get mistaken, it's not tt JASON TAN u know. -.- His birthday is today too! AND WE MET TODAY! Wad a coincidence cann! x)
Okay, here's the list of people i wanna say thankyou to for wishing me happy birthday! 1ST UP: EDWIN KOR! :D -Heh. i did listen to u and read ur msg at 12! =DD And u dun need to tell me u needa be first, cos u'll always be the first! :D Becos u're impt! :D (unlike my bro who doesnt even rmb my bday -.-)
Now these are not in orderr, cos well, im old and cant rmb who wished me first. xD
~YING HUI!!! :D -YAY. SQDM <3 HAHA. Okay, we had a deal to strive together right! ai ni <3 and dun think too much kayy~ JIAYOU~ :D
~EILEEN!!! :D -SQDM! <3 HEH. Thankyou for wishing me happy birthday thrice, eh no 4 times. Twice on my blog(beforehand), once on msn 2 days ago, and at 12 sth today! cos ur history teacher was late. -.- HAHA~ anata o aiishiteru! and i know u tagged tt u love me! I know how to read jap kayy! xD and i know u would say, "watashi mo anata o aiishiteru!" ^^
~WILLA!!! :D -SQDM BEARBEAR! <3 THankyou for buying 8 polar cakes for me alth u wanted to buy a pandan cake! sorry to make ur effort go to waste! SORRY SORRY! >< But thanks so muchhhh~ ;DDD anata o aiishiteru! ^^ :D
~CALEAN!!! :D -I cant believe u rmb my bday! Thanks so much for making my day happier alth im sick! :D
~MARCUS KOR/RIO!!! :D -Let me think, did u wish me? Yeah, i think u did on msn! xD Thank youuu~
~PECKYEE DARLING!!! :D -THANK YOU SO MUCH DARLING! AI NI YI BEI ZI~ <3 :D And yes, i know eeyores are ex. ><
~HWEEHOON!!! :D -Thanks for wishing me early~ ((: Well, u will know wad i bought u when we meet up someday! WE MUST MEET UP KAYY~ I MISSED U ALL~ <3 And i bet gina doesnt know it's my bday today! xDD
~JASON KOR!!! :D -Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO! :D Enjoy ur birthday kayy, and thanks~ i hope everything goes well 2moro u know.. (:
~THAT RANDOM GUY IN AUDI NAMED BBABYMARCUS! -Erm, thanks for wishing me? zzz. anyways, u sux. i told u i was a decent girl luhs! and u can go horny on ur own~ i'm not suited to be with u, or rather, i will never be with u.
~CANDY!!! :D -Met you in audi todayy too! :D Thanks and goodluck with ur hw~ (:
~XIAOBOY(or sth)!!! :D -I know ur name is darren! From ur email. xDD met u in audi today also! thanks too, now, have i rmbed wrongly about u wishing me? .__.
~FANG ZI!!! :D -COUSIN! <3 Well, i just received ur sms! Thanks~~ Missed u all alottt, guess all the schoolwork are keeping us away from each otherr. JIAYOU with studies~ (:
~KATHERINE!!! :D -ANGEL! <3 Thanks~ I will work hard to get into 301~ :D and dun rush about the present! OH. and i owe u letter. sorry. =X
~BIRTHDAY ALARM!!! :D -AHAHA. THIS IS RANDOM.
~ZEN!!! :D -HAHA. THANKS! :D <3 wells, it's okay to wish me late! At least u remembered. ^^ and jiayou with workk~ (:
~YEAR 1 SQUAD!! :D -THANKS JUNIORS~ Jiayou with cca and stuff kayy! Must do ur besttt~ (:
~MARGARET!!! :D -OF COURSE I RMB U! Thanks for wishing me on friendster! <3 miss you lots ;D i hope we have class gathering soon~ (:
~ESTHER!!! :D -AUDI DARLING! Not classmate! x)) THANKS~ AND LOVE YOU TOO~ :D <3
~DENISE!!! :D -SESE~ xDD THANKS ^^ okay. im lazy to post msgs, so here are the name list! :D ~ JUNWEI! ~ ANGELA! ~ JIAWEN! ~ JIEYI! ~ WEITING! ~ PEIYIN! ~ SQDMS! ~ JERALDINE! ~ DENISE LAOPO! - YAY. WO AI NI! :D ~ JIE CHI! ~ PEITING! ~ GERMAN CLASSMATES! ~ AND ALL WHO WISHED ME. COS I FORGOT! ><
~AND OF COURSE MY MUMMM!! <3 - Thanks so much for everything~ Still need take care of me when u were sick too. ): thanks for the cake and love <3 get well soon kayy! and i promised i would take care of myself. You know wad, i would do everything for u, and the reason is simple, just 4 words, 因为爱你!
Right, i might leave out some ppl. told u i old le mahh xD anws, sorry if i left out ur name! shall update the list laterrr. :D my mum wants to cut cake with mee! 2 ppl sounds kinda little. >< i shall wait till nighttt!
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Okay. Here's wad i suddenly realised ytd. i was kinda sad and stressed over hw. and me and yh talked alot at her hse. went for dinner with my mum. and we walked home, and we talked.. and i guess.. We shouldnt regret the choices and decisions we have made. And i think i don't regret joining sj. Becos my mum kinda like asked me if the other ccas were as busy as sj, and i was like maybe club and societies not so busy(it's true). and she said maybe if i have joined mindsports or sth it would be better, as in only need use brain mahh. Then i realised, well, it's the stuff we achieved from joining a particular cca. Just like wad we do in life, we achieve sth from yet. 而每件事收获都不同.. So yeah, i promise i will stop running away and do my best, and never fall again~ You never know wad these things can lead u to in the future. So i shall not give up, and see wad is the kind of future that awaits me. 我会开心的,我会... ^^
Hmm. i think i typed quite long alr. >< Must go for lunch leee~ I hope im not having a fever. D: i feel kinda fever-ish. >< and my bro just came home. and as expected, he didnt know it was my bday. and wants to eat my cake. D: so...... but nvm (:
BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDRIE(同年同月同日出生的)! :D AND JASON KOR! :D <3\
-im starting to cherish everything and go optimistic again, well, tt's good, isn't it? (:
WELL! Here's um kinda personality report from astrology.com
Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others You have powerful emotional attachments to the past, your family, your childhood, those places you associate with safety and security and your beginnings. Maintaining a connection with your roots and heritage and keeping family bonds strong are very important to you. Loyal, devoted, and sentimental, you tend to cling to whatever is dear to you, be it person, familiar place, or cherished possession.
Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation You are highly interested in inner, subjective, and personal issues, and your thinking is based more on feelings, intuition, personal experiences, and prejudices rather than reason or logic. Intellectual abilities and accomplishments without heart or soul mean little to you. You are empathic and would be an excellent counselor, for you are a sensitive listener and deeply interested in a person's feelings and inner life. In addition to psychology, you are drawn to education, art, poetry, music, or mythology. You are not especially confident about speaking in public, but will open up and share your thoughts in small, intimate groups. You enjoy keeping a diary or personal journal and reading the chronicles of others' lives and personal development.
it's just a sample report of ME! so it's kinda short. well, it's short. -.-
well, happy stuff. glad tt yh is okay now! At least her backache has nth to do with her spine. good good thing. (: and hope everybody gets well soon; rest well~
going out now! for movies then dinner. :D heh. my mum takes it as a celebration for my bday! ((: okayyyyyyyyyyyyy. i think i had 3 posts today. .__. oh yeah. this is my 150th post! :D
back from camp.. i shall not post much about camp, cos some things are better to be kept as memories forever instead of being told as stories. (: felt so guilty firstly, sorry for all the troubles caused. i should have been stronger, much stronger and i promise i would not fall next camp, a promise is a promise.. (: and of course, thanks to everyone for your concern. other than thanks, i dunno wad to say. all the speeches and group interaction on the last day were touching and it would be kept in my heart forever. ^^
i think i have learned alot from this camp, and really, Experience is what you get, when you don't get what you want. ^^
AND SKITTLES! sorry for causing you all so much trouble, and thanks! I think our group was great, despite our small small manpower. But we'd made it out together! and we're the middle group, as in 3rd best. ^^ and of course, thank you to our group ncos. =)
S *clap clap clap clap* K *clap clap clap clap* I *clap clap clap clap* T *clap clap clap clap* T *clap* L *clap* E *clap* S *clap* SKITTLES SKITTLES IS THE BEST~ GO SKITTLES! :D
ooooooo. and i just remembered sth. today is my chinese bday. ;D HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME~ ((:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! CAMP TOMORROW. oh no? i think im too slackkkk. ><" great. i sux. rawrrs. jiayou skittles~ jiayou everybody~ we'll go through this camp togetherrrr~ ^^ okay, dun miss me ppl~ i'll be back on wednesdayyy. cya!
Hmm. I feel much better todayyy. Finally finished the book 'Lost Echoes'! It's a real nice book, just tt some of the scenes described were erhem. disgusting or horrible? but overall, it was a good book except for there's alot of vulgarities. every page also can find at least one. .__.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING HUI!!!!~ HEH. SEE YOUR BIG BIG NAME THERE BIRTHDAY GIRL? ;D HAHA. take good care of Dumbo! aka bear~ :X
lolll. reminded me tt ji'er is not coming for camp. so we decided to use a toy/doll or something to represent ji'er~~ ahahahha. and we thought of using a bear, then hy was reading the script. then inside all is ji'er blah blah. then she keep saying wrong. xD and we were using yh's dumbo as a substitute for just now. and so DUMBO BECAME BEARRRR!! AHAHA. =X
Right. Here's the quiz from HWEE HOON! =DD heh. didnt include hwee hoon's and gina's name below cos it means they have to do the quiz again? sounds kinda wronggg. xD
Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you. #1 Ying Hui the birthday girlllll #2 Eileen #3 Willa #4 Denise #5 Peckyee #6 Zen #7 Ivan kor #8 Hui Yee #9 Okay, i ran out of names #10 Forget it.
1. Who is no.7 having a relationship with? Hmm. i dunno? it's complicated. ;D
2.Who is no.9 having a relationship with? HMM. No. 10? Cos they're suppose to link! xD 3. If no.9 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing? YEAH of courseeee. If not it means im really random :X 4. What about no.4 and no.5? HMM. firstly, they're both girls, secondly, they are jie and mei. 5. What is no.3 studying? HEH. GEP. 6. When was the last time you chatted with no.6? Eh. cant rmb. seems quite long ago. >< 7. Does no.4 work? Dont think so? 8. Does no.8 have any cousin in his/her school? Nope. i dun think so. 9. Will you woo no.8? -.- she's a girl. 10. How about no.5? OF COURSE! She's my dear little darling. ;D But she's a girl. -.-(Can't blame me luhs, im in a girls' sch, so ppl i know are mainly girls, and on net too. .__.) 11. Does no.2 have any siblings? Hmm. yup. An older brother. =D 12. How did you get to know no.3 and no.4? No.3 : she's my squadmate; we met becos we same cca? No.4 : she's my audi laopo, met in audi. ^^ 13. Where does no.1 live at? TOA PAYOH LOR 8 BLK 226. hmm. i shall not disclose her unit number. :XX 14. How did you get to know no.2? My squadmate also; she's one childish one who acts mature. :X 15. Is no.5 the sexiest person in the world? You bettt! =3
Lolll. time to edit script for skittles! JIAYOU SKITTLES! we can do it together. =D <3
fuck i hate today. it's a bad bad day. maybe i would just stop trying and let go of everything one day. tt would be nice, isnt it? then i need not try so hard anymore and end up achieving nth. this hurts alot, and some ppl just really dun understand. cos they weren't the ones who tried. this sux.
Hmm. realised i didnt post for v long. wells, i didnt go sch todayyyy! hohoho. 2nd time throughout these holidays. (except weekends) =D and i havent done much work. OMG. i need to dooooo! but seriously lah, im in a holiday mood. slacked through the whole day. like used com from 8am to nearly 7 pm. then now im using again. cos discussing art project. :D gonna off after this. and go disturb my mum. :X cos hardly have any time to pei her these few days. and my bro is at camp. dad's out. so can spend the night with her crapping. ;D eh. i forgot to continue posting. erm yeah. now i dunno wad to post. right, shall endd. -.- wad a day. wasted
hmmm. i think our group was quite efficient on friday! At least we managed to paint finish our flag! HEH. SKITTLES!! x)) the cleaning part was a bit erhem cos i got paint all over my hand. like all sorts of colour, which resulted in like black/brown? (the colour u get from mixing all the colours) cos i was trying to wash the paintbrushes. and turpentine just makes everything messy. D: and many thanks to yh and grace for helping to paint our flaggg!! and of course willa for helping me to clean up. :D much appreciated. ^^
well, went for dinner with my mum. met up with her at tpy interchange and we went for kfc. :D i wanted to eat pasta mania, but it was far too ex. so decided to eat kfc. and guess wad, i ate with my hands. with the paint stuck inside my fingernails and some paint over here and there. and i think i ate paint, really. ahhs, but it doesnt matter now, cos at least i didnt get food poisoning. :X
hmmm. todayy! went wingyan's house for skittles meeting! HEH. HER ROOM IS PINK. and she has a very cute big laogong. ;D hahaha. it started raining suddenly when hy and me were waiting at the bus stop. we stopped at the wrong stop, like 2 bus stops b4. D: and we thought we stopped after the correct stop. right, it's kinda complicated. :X and sorry wingyan for the trouble~ D:
we like slacked alot. but well we did get some work done. :D then hy and i went off at ard 4 sth. and wingyan went for tuition at ORCHARD. ( i think tt's far .__.) right, we went to the library. and hy influenced me to borrow books. well, that's good, isn't it? ;D then went home. hmmmmmmmm. i shall force myself to finish chi sia report 2moro. jiayou myself. :D
ahhhs. group meeting 2moro againnnnnnnnnnnnn. ahhhhhhhhhhs. im going crazy le. D: so much work to do. and i just cant help but slackkk. ): but i feel accomplished tt i did a bit of my chi sia today. better than doing nth. ((:
realised i didnt blog for very long. im lazyyy~ :X haha. and i dun think i make sense cos i make dollars + pounds + euros + rupiahs + ringgit + RMB + yen + whatever currency u can think of! xD hahas. i wonder if ppl understand wad im talking about! well. :X
hmmmm. im like totally lost in my math. like i forgot wad i did, totally. la.. unseen poetry. I DUNNO HOW TO DO?! gahh. crazy. -.- okay. history = im lazy. okay. german= im lazy, also haven start. cme= zz? art= meeting on tuesdayyyyy
okay, in conclusion, im just lazy. -.- well, holiday mah. D: like YEAH, IT'S HOLIDAYS. zz. holidays like worse than normal school day can. >:( so cham.......... ahhhhhhs. i hope i can finish everything. eh, no. I HAVE TO FINISH EVERYTHING.
Our group meetings are like going nowhere. group flag not done, performance not done, table label not done, cheers halfway? okay, not really not done. it's like haven complete. and group flag the design is very ahem. cos yeah, skittles. hard to come up with real good designs? as in for colour combination, -.- colours of the rainbow lor. zz. but the problem is group flag is red colour de. .__."
ahh. im complaining about all the stuff again. i shall go to sleep soon. like yeah, v soon. 2MORO GO SCH AGAIN!
i think this is the worst holidays i had.. with all the days booked outside and in school for meetings = work
used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;
Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.
For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.
And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.