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.Sunday, July 6, 2008 ' 6:44 PM Y
& I'm waiting


decided to post cos im super sian diao now.
it's been like one week since i updated this blog. D:
sorry luhs, too busy with stuff.


不要拿我们来出气.
think about urself b4 u talk about others.
因为你也好不到哪里去.你们比他们更烂.


many things happened this week.
it's been packed with lots of activities.
and work.
and frustrations.
and vulgarities.

wasnt in a very good mood this week.
sometimes high, sometimes emo, sometimes vulgarities-ish.
sorry if i snapped at u for nth and for emo-ing.
it wasn't wad i wanted.
but nobody can really stand tt damn attitude of urs u know.
it's totally ______.

german is getting harder and harder to learn.
my brain doesnt seem to absorb any german stuff.
or maybe i wasnt even putting in enough effort.
but i've too many stuff to fuss about and THINK.
it's just too overwhelming.
i'm so gonna flunk my german project.
and i swear tt im gonna quit german by the end of this year.
i'll never make it through next year if i continue with german
im just not cut out for german u know.

my dad's been nagging and scolding and whatever thing these few days.
it's totally irritating.
everytime he's out or asleep,
my bro will play com.
then only after he woke up and came back,
my bro would pass to me to use/play.
wth can.
then i always end up getting scolded.
can't he just mind his own business.
as if im always wrong.
he doesnt even bother to find out the reason,
or rather doesnt even bother to LISTEN.

unhappy stuff keeps coming.
and some ppl just give a damn attitude.
and think tt they are always right.
and whatever shyt.
they never think about other ppl.
and they never bother to change,
cos no matter wad, ppl just arent able to express to them.
and i doubt they would even listen,
like yeah. -.-

so the hatred just keeps building up,
and till one day,
who knows,
like yeah, maybe one day,
i would just let it all out.
and everything would be over u know.
everythingg.
and the most i would just jump off the building,
and there's nth more to worry about.
but this would just add on to other ppl's worries.
so even if i have no other choice,
i will not take tt way out.
it just doesnt solve anything,
but waste a life.

had youth day fun fair on friday.
well, baked potatos and spudman!
:D
haha, 204 earned $415 if im not wrong. ;D
not bad lah, alth it's the lowest among the highest in the few levels.
and i worked 3 shifts.
somehow, ppl just dun turn up for shifts.
and there wasn't enough ppl to help out.
so i ended up staying there for 3 shifts.
or maybe, everybody abandons me and im alone.
yeah.
so i just hmm, continued to do lor.
and the bacon bits smells really nice! xD
after 3 shifts, helped jieyi for the fashion rojak thing.
cos mq not feeling well.
so it became jy.
then jy also not feeling well.
so me and angela and amanda and hyo lim ended up searching the whole school
and asking our class ppl to become models.
so in the end, nobody wanted to be.
and jy missed the time.
so we forfeited,
no big deal though.
then we started to buy some food.
and i ate very little.
after tt went to the mummy hunt thingy.
haha, they have lots of fake spiders there. xD
then spent the rest of the coupons on food and drinks.
and went back to class to meet dorothy for public duty.
yeah, tt's all.

slacked my whole day through ytd and today.
today got do some work lah.
then i ended up listening to music cos i finished those work tt doesnt require a comp(which obviously is very little).
i shall try continue the script for chi debate later. =\
then yeahh.

a busy week,
with lots of random moodswings.
and who knows,
maybe my mood wun get better the following week.
it might just get worse, seeing some ppl ard.
and more work and frustrations and troubles.
i might just give up at tt moment.

okay, it's 7 alr.
i better off the comp,
b4 my dad comes out of the bathroom and off the main switch.
it's always tt irritating.

and lastly,
fuck.



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