.Wednesday, August 6, 2008 ' 6:36 PM Y
& I'm waiting
superr longg never update lee.
D: falling sick is bad bad bad.
and not going to school is even more bad bad bad. D:
im very worried about chem now.
acids. >(
i dunno anything?!
and history too. >(
even with notes, nothing will go into my brain
unless somebody teach me about it and im listening. D:
omg lah.
why did i have to miss sch?! >(
got back history paper today.
im actually very disappointed.
it's not as if my marks were like very bad,
it's just that everybody did so well with like almost 30 ppl got As?
i dunno.
it's just like everyone did so well,
and yet i didn't.
and i just dun understand why i just dunno how to link can.
LIKE YEAH.
if i just change a bit of the last sentence for the last line of every paragraph and link to the ques,
i could have jolly well gotten 2 more marks or even 3, which would be like 10% more.
oh wells, miss chua is right anws, no point crying over spilled milk.
so, das ist mir egal. :D
i'll pick up myself from where i fall. ^^hmm. had cip ytd.
it kinda like sent me thinking over a lot of stuff in this world again.
it's not really like im freaked out or what.
i just.. suddenly had a lot of thoughts about a lot of stuff.
and to think that this world is complicated,
becos of us struggling everyday with studies, exams, etc.
it's like so hard.
but compared to others, this is actually nothing.
and we don't really know what they really wanted.
they can't express themselves well.
compared to other cips, this one is a really different experience.
i don't deny that i was traumatised by some things after the cip,
but it's more of a reflecting state.
still remembered somebody from 204 did her chi sia on guan huai
and when she fen xiang with us her sia, somebody asked a question like "why do people guan huai each other?"
and i think the answer is just like, because no man is independent.
like no man is like an island, able to stand on its own.
we depend on each other, and the reason why there is "love" in this world is that all of us have feelings, feeling of being happy, sad, angry, etc. but most importantly, the feeling of being loved. It's such a mystical feeling, making you know that you're important to someone, someone needs you, and you need them too, in this world, you have a stand, somebody just
cares about you. and this love makes everyone cares for each other.
and that's why we have such things like cip.
cip is just like letting students serve the community,
what real care and love is without hoping anything in return, you do things for others and care for them.
we students do cip mainly because we're told to do so,
because we have a need to do so.
and i know myself that despite typing all these things out here now,
i don't think you would see me as an volunteer helping out in charitable organisations etc.
on this world, there is nothing
fair, everything can be just
ironic.
not that i want to criticise teachers, but actually not only teachers,
when we teach other people stuff, like moral values etc,
the thing is, do we even do it in the first place?
if we don't, how do you expect people to listen to you and do it too?
it's just too hard.
and whether we want to care for others,
we want to love others,
we want to help others,
it's just our own choice, our own decision.
if you dare to take the first step,
why won't you have the courage to walk the whole journey?
after all, you have already started on the journey.
so instead of turning back and walking away, why don't you just try and who knows, you might just finish the whole journey, exceeding your own expectations.
maybe we humans just think too much.
sometimes, it might be much better if we can just stay innocent,
and live a simple life.
it did often be happy.
a
carefree life.
saying it is easy, but it's never easy to achieve it.
because this world is just too complicated,
it just consist of too many problems and troubles,
too many dissatisfaction, too many unpleasant experiences, too many sadness.
it's filled with too many of these things,
that it's almost impossible to stay happy.
and maybe sometimes, thinking too much is bad for my own good.
sometimes, i just don't understand why people can be so insensitive to the feelings of other people and such.
i know it's not really their fault,
if we just try to laugh it out,
maybe everything would be alright,
but after all, it would hurt and leave a mark.
and when this mark gets too deep,
that person would be hurt severely,
and you don't know what might just happen.
it's like "ji shao cheng duo".
if everyone could just think more about others,
things might just get better.
but it's not tt easy,
i sometimes lose control of myself too.
when somethings get out of hand,
it's just too hard to control it again.
okay, enough dwelling.
haiz.
there's ict 2moro!!
omg.
i'm like haven't done anything.
and assignment 2 is due by 2moro!
OMG CAN. D:
alot of stuff to doO!!!!
oh my. >(
this is bad.
haiz.
no time to do ict.
i need flash. D:
but then i dun have time to go comp lab doo. ):
sad sad. ):
hope everything goes well 2moroo.
明天会更好吗？
it's up to us to decide.