After two whole years, I've decided to come back here.
This blog is amazingly 5 years old and reading all my old posts makes me wonder who I was.
常聼人說，人不能忘記當初的自己。
但，當初的我是怎樣的人？現在的我呢？
No matter what, [IcyWitchy] Janice's old blog is gone.
It was an identity I used to hold on to tightly, because I felt like that was the real me despite Audi being a virtual world. When I look at the AuditionSEA shortcut on my desktop, I have no longer a strong urge to press on it. My definition of the world of audi is no longer what it is, as we all leave this place we used to have fun together. All that's left is memories.
Now, I face reality and my real life, trying to find my own direction in life and future career.
Looking at people around me leaving this tied-up JC life makes me reconsider again and again whether I should still be on this track. I feel so tired having to avoid studying everyday, and at the end of each day, find myself guilty for not doing what I should be doing and try to convince myself that this is important to my life. And the cycle repeats.

& there's this problem about my dad.
Sometimes, I wished he knows what we're talking about.
That attitude, that behaviour, that character, it's unbearable.
But again, when he starts getting touchy (or is there another word for this) and talk about how he slogged for us and stuff, I can't help it.
How I wish he can get over his lousy character soon. It's hard for us, and equally hard for him.
Please, just let everything get over soon.

I need the courage to make my own track, to make a difference.

THAT LADYY

` Luping
` Amethyst (Ame)
` 22

` 6H'06 FTPPS
` 104'07 204'08 302'09 402'10 NYGH
` 11S6A HCJC
` NTU

`ELF, Primadonna, F迷, JM and much more

used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;


Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.

For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.

And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.

HER PASTY

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