我： 我不想再读书了。。 （这句话应该讲了N遍） 算一算，这已经是我第15年读书，还要再上大学的话就19/20年了。人生的四份之一竟然都花在读书上。。

妈： 那你要做什么？

我： 呃。。卖花不错吧？自己开一家店。。 （其实只是胡乱说说，但其实这计划还算不赖）

妈： 那好啊。（很认真的讲）可以先去花店打工，学会插花等，然后赚钱开自家的店。但应该还是要去学卖花，各种花类或插花等的吧？不然到时人家问你这什么花你也不知道。。 这样打算去哪里学阿？

我： 你讲真的哦？我其实随便讲讲而已。。

妈： 是你自己讲的嘛。。


嗯，我妈就是这样，任意我去“放纵”，我决定的，她都支持。就因为这样，我更爱她，有时很想为她把这恨不得丢掉的学业搞好，让她不用担心，未来更可以赚钱让她过上好日子。但，我很不长进，三分钟热度，永远少了那持久性与动力。

兴趣，为了生活赚多钱，这两要怎么选择？
这应该是我永远都要面对的问题。
若要选择兴趣，接下来的问题是我的兴趣是什么？我真的喜欢这吗？

用力的说服自己，照小煜说的吧，想把兴趣变成职业而把这当梦想是件好事，但自己基本的学业等需要完成的东西还是要先搞好，兴趣有机会才往那发展，不能的话就永远当兴趣吧。
是啊，我必须下定决心努力走完这高中最后的旅程，不为了自己，也要为了家人。
加油！！！它其实没那么痛苦，你行的！！！

THAT LADYY

` Luping
` Amethyst (Ame)
` 22

` 6H'06 FTPPS
` 104'07 204'08 302'09 402'10 NYGH
` 11S6A HCJC
` NTU

`ELF, Primadonna, F迷, JM and much more

used to be:
` Audi-addict; IcyWitchy/IcyIceWitchy/
---xAMETHYST / Amethystf
` FAM: TheRetainners; -PlayWithMe- ; xLOVEDOPESSx;


Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.

For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her loneliness love for her babies.

And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.

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