.Friday, April 26, 2013 ' 8:18 PM Y
& I'm waiting
Reality vs Dream
Dreams.. that are no longer existent?
What do I really want to begin with?
2 days of attachment for msw.
Other than the fun part of meeting people and the hc senior, everything was plain information overload. It's a challenging job where you have to learn constantly, think fast, act fast, hence the excitement. But you need to be able to handle stress, firstly, from your colleagues (supervisors), then doctors/mdm team, and lastly, your clients/patients. A lot of training on the job required for the medical conditions part and how do you survive at first not understanding anything, but getting shoot down by everyone because you simply not know? It's a scary thought, and it's not as if it's your fault because it's not even taught anywhere and there isn't a course for that part. Then comes the emotional part of having to do counseling for your patients and the family members. How do you deal with sensitive issues and how to deal with it when patients pass away? Somehow, I think I'm going to have a difficult time for that part. Then the exceeding expectations from people of msws, it's just.. sad.
It's a job where demand is high, hence the steadiness and guarantee of a job. But then again, you don't get paid much for all the long hours you work. It's not as if you're really paid totally peanuts, but honestly, we can earn much more, much faster and achieving more in a job after studying other uni courses.
Stuck. Totally stuck and I don't know what to.
How do you actually know where your passion lies from just seeing what people do? You probably need to try it out yourself for a month or so before you know. But "signing on the dotted line" means 8 years. 4 years of study and 4 years of bond. How am I going to survive if I realise I do not have the passion halfway?
어떻게...?
Why is this all so hard...
.Monday, April 15, 2013 ' 5:43 PM Y
& I'm waiting
scholarship interview.. And the life beyond?
Screwed up my first NTU internal scholarship interview..
but the health science interview this time was simply, enjoyable.
Marvelled by the wonderful people working in that sector. They are filled with experiences and willing to share the experiences with others.
And one of the advices given to me - find out where my passion lies.
Honestly, it's not as if I totally don't know I have to do that. Perhaps I should really just start to find out more from actual people.
But medical social work.. sounds like quite a good choice now.
At least the part about being able to walk through people's life journeys with them and experience is a motivational thing that keeps people going.
In any case, I can always do a career switch if I really do give up ..
hopefully the other scholarship provider contacts me soon.
.Monday, April 1, 2013 ' 12:12 AM Y
& I'm waiting
有些事 不是看到了希望才去堅持，而是因爲堅持了才會看到希望
I should at least make one post each month, so that my archive list runs nicely. haha.
teaching tuition doesn't seem to be an easy job at all, but still, I should try my best since I'm alr in it.
After completing all the applications, I've been slacking for the past week.
guitar's out on lending, and I refuse to prac on my classical one.
drawing's on hold, and it bugs me that I forgot to date the last piece and still haven't gone back to doing it.
that half knitted piece still lies on the table, waiting for me to finish it.
sherlock holmes books' due dates are up (even after extension) so I returned it without finishing. (well, I finished the hound of baskerville and it sure was good)
watched g.i. joe: retaliation today - thought it was good and action-packed and stirs a bit of nervousness and fantasy in me at the same time. Lee Byung-Hun is a real hot guy. :P
so for the past week, I did nothing except turn myself into an e.l.f.
Yeah, a suju elf. :)
For some reason, I stopped myself from exploring kpop earlier, probably because I was busy with school and caught up with following cpop already, but now I can see how their popularity came about.
The video's one of the reasons why I started to like them.
To some people, abnormal affection between guys which make them look like gays, but definitely not at all. It's the brotherly bond, somehow, the bond which holds them together even though they came such a long and hard way, but they work hard for the future together.
It's a pity how Hankyung/Hangeng left the group; I personally prefer him as Hankyung. He seems much more comfortable and fun-loving with the accompaniment and protection from his bandmates.
And same goes for Kibum, who went on a "singing hiatus".
And definitely a pity, the "forever13" fans who reject Henry and Zhoumi. Personally, I think they deserve the recognition and being named as part of Super Junior.
Hopefully, they go on strongly and will eventually come back together as a full band/group.
Suju fighting :)
And nope, I didn't stop being a F迷.
So that's all for my fangirling for now.
Somehow, I don't know how and don't feel like replying my pri sch teacher on facebook about my uni applications.
In the past month since I've gotten my results, my thoughts kept on changing.
我要什麽，該堅持什麽，未來是什麽，都是一片模糊……
有些事 不是看到了希望才去堅持，而是因爲堅持了才會看到希望。
Anyway, happy April's fool~