.Thursday, June 27, 2013 ' 7:34 PM Y
& I'm waiting
到了明天
碎了一地的诺言，拼凑不回的从前，可我仍然期待奇迹会出现。
有些事，值得等一辈子。
就算奇迹最终没出现，也请让我拥抱着这回忆重现的美梦。
因为我相信 有些事是永恒的。
.Wednesday, June 26, 2013 ' 9:34 PM Y
& I'm waiting
原谅我
请原谅我，原谅我不成熟。
不爱你是借口，好让你离开我。
请原谅我，好想自私将你占有。
你的寂寞 就让我承受，让你过更好的生活。
就这一次，唯这一次，我求你离开我。
这样的我，接受过你的爱已算庆幸。
接下来的寂寞，我独自承受。
你出现之前，我早已习惯一个人。
这点小痛，有什么大不了。
这次，轮到你过更好的生活，那没有我身影的生活。
.Tuesday, June 25, 2013 ' 11:17 PM Y
& I'm waiting
Strength
'You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice left.'
Where do the strength and motivation for people to do things and achieve come from?
Sometimes I wish I were much more competitive, it creates motivation for you to prove yourself, although being over-competitive probably is a bad thing.
I just look upon others' achievements, get excited all over them, and end up being jealous and self-pitying how I'm lacking in all aspects.
How.. Do I make myself a better person? Just all these thoughts aren't making things better at all. There is no action taken... I need to get rid of my laziness and hesitancy.
Will I only be strong when left with no choice?
.Sunday, June 23, 2013 ' 8:59 PM Y
& I'm waiting
나에게 생일 축하!!
Wanted to write a post previously but didn't manage to do so, so I will do everything at one go in this post. :D
Since I've settled for a uni, a course, and a scholarship, I packed everything and sent most stuff to the recycle bin.. Wonder how much paper all this amounts to.
1) All the IT related courses and scholarships that came from all the visits to computing seminars etc for h2 computing
2) PSC Fair - all the various government organisations scholarships
+ overseas uni info
3) Invitations from unis, magazines, scholarships fliers etc. from the brightsparks package that came on results release day.
4/5) invitations from unis, scholarships, brightsparks magazines on scholarships, letters from scholarships organizations etc.
6) Allied Health Seminar/Fair - info on moh/mohh scholarship, allied health professionals, health clusters.
7) university course book, uni offer letters, scholarship offer letter...
It's been a really long period of thoughts and decisions.
From computing to arts management to design to events managements to liberal arts to film to communications to healthcare to psychology to social work and finally business.
Jumping everywhere, not knowing what to do, no confidence on what I wish to do, to finally settling for something which I had never thought of.
There are people who know what they definitely want to do and eventually end up there, but I'm one of those who still wonder what I myself truly want and what I can achieve.
Watched a random interview on EXO and Ryeowook post a question to them: What will you choose as a career between something you like to do and something you're good at?
One of the members answered, I will choose something I'm good at for my career, because I'm more likely to go further and succeed in it. Then I will continue doing what I like to do and get better at it.
It reminded me of myself saying 'What I'm good at is totally different from what I like'. And Mr Ng saying 'I don't understand why my students always tell me that. Wouldn't you be good at something you like since you keep doing it?'
Yeah, if I really do like it till the point that I want to make it my career, I would have practised everyday till I'm good at it. Or that is so in the most ideal situation. Because things just don't go our way.
And so, someone mentioned to me that you must learn to distinguish between your passion and your career. Things you hope to make into your career may just be a regular passion. And if it is so, you will just end up burning your passion and giving up on it.
So I tell myself, it will remain as a passion for now. :) Dreams don't change, goals change.
And maybe one day down the road, I will fulfill it.
From now on, I'll work hard on what I'm doing now. :)
And so, moving on to 23 of June!
To some people, birthdays are not special but just regular days and they don't celebrate.
A few years ago, I spent my birthday thinking that it would be the worst out of all my birthdays because of all the unfortunate things that happened on that day. Now, I just felt that I was a silly girl then. :)
Like what one person said in a particular drama, everyone is born to be loved and no one should spend their birthday in depression or misery.
And yes, birthdays can be most special and happy, if you make the best out of it.
So I spent the first hour of my birthday, excited, receiving blessings and wishes from beloved people. Took selcas with xiao fen hong, since it's her birthday too (she's a birthday present :P) and wondering when I received her and how old she is now. Concluded that she's probably 4 or 5, but she doesn't look like she has spent 4/5 years on the bed with me. :P
Listened to So I and It's Fortunate, and felt like everything's fortunate. Appreciative of all the things and people around me.
As one grow older and face the realistic world, you learn to be appreciative of the lovely people and good things that happen to you.
Fell asleep, got woken up by my mum in the morning.
Planned to go to sentosa originally, but there seems to be nothing much to do there. Searched on the Internet and came across a one-for-one coupon for admission to jurong bird park. Then I became excited to go the bird park. And apparently if you go on your birthday, it's free admission with 10% discount on retail and food or sth!
But we ended up going shopping instead at causeway point.
And before that, we had breakfast at macs.
waiting for the food~
My mum posing and advertising for macs. :P
Me and my 기린 giraffe! :)
Took a photo of my full blue outfit while shopping.
Bought tshirts, hoodie, shoes, nail polish! (yes, im exploring the world of nail art ㅋㅋ)
Then we went for lunch-dinner at 3 plus!
Taiwan food!
The 鲁肉饭 was really good. :D
酸梅汁 (love it) and the not-exceptionally-tasty 葱油饼
芋圆desert thing that was so filling!
Then we walked about for a little more and decided to go home cos we were so tired from walking.
And took photos with my mum on the mrt~
Ending my day with this long post, feeling happy, fortunate and excited for my 19th.
나에게 생일 축하!!
p.s. Thank you all for the birthday wishes! 사랑해요!