.Saturday, September 28, 2013 ' 11:32 AM Y
& I'm waiting
小粉红之记 - 第一发
X石夜总会 参赛者: 我要挑战金氏世界纪录！！！
小粉红: (模仿中) 我要挑战金氏世界纪录！！！
妈: 屁啦！你坐在那边给别人看就好！ (把小粉红丢到椅子旁边)
小粉红: -_______-|||
.Thursday, September 26, 2013 ' 2:33 AM Y
& I'm waiting
明天的自己
2.17am. And I'm typing this blog post instead of sleeping or doing my stats tutorial.
Reflection for today... and reminders to myself:
1) Sometimes when you miss the moment/chance, it will never come back again. But if you really do value it, you have to put down your pride, considerations and everything else to chase after it. It will be worth it, when you think back.
2) There are kinds of people in this world. And the challenge is, how to handle relationships with all these different people. I guess you can't just learn one specific method and try to customise for everyone else, it doesn't work the way products do. (my business mind is too activated)
If you do not like a person, does that mean that you should not bother managing relationship?
But life, work, circumstances all put you in the situation where you have to work with these people. It is unavoidable and there is always things to be learned in this area. Remember, don't attribute one's work attitude to their character fully and retain a sole bad impression of them. That's the Devil Horn Perceptual Error (Putting OB into practice).
3) Don't attribute unhappy things to people who are involved but not the direct cause. You're being unfair to them. Constantly remember to appreciate the good parts.
Be grateful for the small good things in life and reduce the focus on the bad and difficult things.
Grateful for moving a step in a friendship.
Grateful for roommate's small little expression of concern.
Grateful that there are always this group of friends I can rely on and get support from.
你希望明天的自己
像一道彩虹 還是剛淋過雨
你想完成的 那些憧憬
比抱著回憶流淚有趣有意義
你希望明天的自己
有微笑眼睛 還是半夢半醒
一直在原地 那兒也不去
也就永遠看不到 新的好風景
学会放开那些痛苦、抱怨、委屈，
让明天的自己像一道彩虹，更好更美的彩虹。
加油。 :) 143. 486. 520.
.Saturday, September 21, 2013 ' 11:26 PM Y
& I'm waiting
记念这美丽的一刻
我：对于迟来的生日祝福感到抱歉，但祝您身体健康，一切顺利，还有很重要的... 幸福快乐！
生日快乐，爸，爱你.. 一直都是 。<3 p="">
爸：我也永远爱你们！
看到这简讯差一点哭出来，但还是忍住了。
第一次听他说爱我们，感觉那么的温暖，那么的欣慰。
其实，偶尔有距离是件好事，少了摩擦，多了关心，多了勇气体现爱。
我爱，一直爱，永远爱，我的家人。
我是幸运的、幸福的。:)
.Thursday, September 12, 2013 ' 5:23 PM Y
& I'm waiting
Till we meet again
Sep 12, 1pm.
On the bus back to school now for stats tut and other stuff.
Sent Lixian off at the airport last now. Somehow managed to hold my tears in in front of her. I guess, she means much more to me than I thought..
If I really wanted to let go of this friendship, I wouldn't have even started knitting that scarf for her. After much struggling to finish with all the work, I ended at 245 rows, with 42 stitches in each row, it exceeded 10000 stitches, hopefully it all translates to blessings for her at UK. :)
Oh, I was casting off the scarf while waiting for the mrt to changi at Tanah merah, and this foreigner guy walked towards me and commented on how hard it is to knit and that it's such a beautiful piece. :) thank you for the compliment and sorry for being a bit not responsive because I was rushing to finish it..
Told my mum while waiting for the bus just now about Lixian starting to cry after hugging her brother, and how my brother would be happy instead if I went overseas to study. Haha, somehow this is slightly amusing.
Plainly told her I'm so jealous of Lixian having 2 big brothers who dote on her. To be honest, it wasn't just her. I was always jealous of girls with elder brothers protecting them and doting on them.
Then my mum said you have your mum, I would dote on you twice the amount. :) suddenly felt so loved and fortunate and I can't stop crying now. And she was saying how my brother would definitely protect me if anything bad happens.
And thinking about how my dad wanted to send me back to school today and avoiding to ask me about his traffic offence appeal even though it failed and all other stuff because he knew I was busy and wanted me to concentrate on uni.
Maybe, keeping a distance from family sometimes help to keep a healthy relationship... You avoid so much more conflicts and tend to express your love more.
One month into uni and I feel physically tired from all the work and mentally tired from trying so hard to manage all the social relationships.
But I gotta go on.
You gotta make this 3 years worthwhile Luping. And make the following years matter even more. You gotta chase down your dreams, your hopes, your wants. Do it big, make them proud.
Don't be afraid. There's nothing to be afraid of... :)
.Saturday, September 7, 2013 ' 11:31 PM Y
& I'm waiting
Busy? It's just gonna get worse.
So, trying to stick to my at-least-one-blog-post-each-month principle.
And being I get too busy to even have time to myself, I'm writing this post.
Actually, I should be knitting L's scarf instead, since she's flying on wednesday night. Not to mention I'm only halfway through, like AHHHH.
And I should be doing my creative assignment, trying to draw links between the topic and a picture that seems to have no links?!
And preparing for my presentation next week.
And doing tuts.
And doing projects.
And reading up on ggl's stuff.
And reading my textbooks.
Whole list of things waiting to be done, but I will never clear the list, since things will just keep adding on.
University is a total place for networking (or maybe, socializing). I guess, it's tiring sometimes.
And when I have a lack of sleep and a really long day (like today), I start to think too much (?) and reflect about how I portray myself to others. Feels like I haven't been doing a total good job.. I don't know how to explain this, but just a feeling.
Escape artist with the GGL members was quite fun, but rather sad that we weren't able to break out of the room in time. And we asked for so many clues. haha, really shows how important teamwork is. Because we were totally not discussing with everyone doing their own thing, so we just missed out on stuff here and there and everywhere. I guess it will be better once we start knowing each other more and start to work together.
And I have a serious problem with my Macbook having no microsoft office. So tempted to just buy it, but I shouldn't be using money so freely without thinking. But haha, trying to use my windows laptop now after a week feels so different. I think changing interface crazily kinda trains my brain, in a way.
I really wanna be a crazy, committed person in uni. Like what one of the GGL members said today, we should learn and do as much as we can in uni.. There's just so many awesome, capable people, and it seems impossible for me to get to any of their positions?
But I'm not really making a conscious effort to get there in the first place.
And I'm already tired after a month of school.
Feel like improving myself.
Chanced upon this Audible Hearts community and I wanted to join as a YouthPal. But they are currently not recruiting. Maybe part of me really likes the idea of social work and helping people though. Or maybe it's like fulfilling individual social responsibility (you know, like CSR but individually). Who knows? Maybe I'm just a practical person trying to build my own portfolio so that people think I'm a nice person.
Ironism.
This is life. Sadly, yet Fortunately.