1st January..
I'll no longer see 1st Jan as simply the start of a new year.
Instead, 생일축하해요 성민오빠!! <3
2013 was different thanks to you.. I'll work as hard as you always do from now on.
May more and more people get to know and love you~ and may suju achieve even more.
Stay young and happy!
Enlistment is coming for you in 2014, but I'll definitely wait for 2016 for you to come back and that's when I'll get my uni degree too.
오빠 사랑해!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
P.s. haven't drawn for so long and I was never good at drawing to begin with, but this is for your birthday!
This day is going to be spent like any other day. But everyone's emphasis that is the last day of 2013 makes it feel... different.
2013 has been a really empty year.
Holidays. Working. Holidays. Working. Holidays. University. Holidays.
Where did all the time fly to?
2013 was full of surprises and decisions too.
A level results. Scholarships. Interviews. University. Moving to hall. Deciding not to go for certain concerts but still ended up going for the first concert.
2013 was full of love from everyone too. :)
And Suju coming into my life.
2014 will be better.
Time to get back to the drawing I started so that I can finish by 12 tonight.
Cheers to the last day of 2013.
感情, 它代表着什么?
我们因 人 事 物 有感情, 而种种的情绪传递了感情。但当我们能利用这些情绪来唤起别人的感情, 那感情是否还算是 感情?
总看着歌唱比赛节目, 评判老师告诉某位选手感受不到你的感情, 这首歌你表达的感情不对, 唱歌想什么很重要 等等。若利用某种情绪来配合歌曲, 听众是否真的能感受到那是对的感情?
有时看着支持的歌手无法表达感情感到无奈, 因为这些事似乎强求不来。
感情。。就是必须要先感受。
一首歌带给你什么感触, 什么感情。
若没有相同的体验, 是否就感受不到歌里原先想表达的感情?
心痛真正的感觉是什么。
Look at people when you're talking to them - eye contact is basic respect.
Don't judge people without getting to know them.
Don't talk behind people's back.
Be mindful of your speech and tone, learn to be critical but not sound accusatory.
Have patience.
Control your emotions and mood swings.
Be forgiving. Be humble.
做善事, 存善念。
这成人的世界到底在把我变成怎样?
还是, 我已无法控制自己的改变..?
纪念我的旧手机...
和妈说机票搞定了, 她说 好 就期待日期到来。接下来的谈话如图中。
撇开天生IQ、领悟力等不谈。
很多事情不是一个人不能、不会，而是他肯花多少心思与时间在事情上。
因为没放心思的东西，懂得人一眼就看出来。
而看出来的同时，他也在对你的印象记录里划下了一个X。
你想做一个能者吗？
首先，请问你自己肯不肯。
Had this dream this morning..
Well, I don't remember all the details of it.. so here's bits of it.
At first, my Dad, my Bro and I were on this car on some road, supposedly going to the airport. Something was wrong with the car, and my flight was at 11.20 (?) while my bro's was at 3+ pm. And apparently the flights were at different places or something (No idea where we were going but yeah) So we concluded that my dad should send me first to the airport somehow then my bro.
Then the dream jumped to a scene in some cafeteria, with 5 people on a table. My dad, me, an Indian(?) girl and another Indian(?) couple. The couple were parents of the girl's friend and they rushed to the place to send her to the airport or something. Well, it felt like now the girl is in my place rushing for a flight but met some problems and the couple came to her rescue? The weird part was, I remember staring at the clock and it was like 11.15 or so and I was thinking aren't we going to be late for the flight. (hah)
Can't remember the details of the conversation, but the girl was probably talking about how grateful she is and how nice the couple is to her friend?
(Despite my convoluted memory of my dream or maybe it's my dream that's convoluted, here's the important part...)
Because the guy of the couple asked my dad.. "So, after listening to all these, do you think you have done something wrong before as a father?"
So.. I translated to Chinese for my dad (yeah, I actually remember in my dreams that my dad's english isn't good)
And he began his answer with... "有过错…".
And before he said another word, I hugged him (probably for the first time in my life?) and started crying so hard. All I was thinking was.. this is enough already, thank you for trying. I hugged tighter and cried louder and harder.
So the next moment, I woke up.
And tears streamed down my cheeks.
So.. crying in dreams do translate to crying in reality?
In any case, who am I to define that my dad did something wrong in his parenting when I myself don't try enough as a daughter.
I should try better. :) for the family and love I want.
Nowadays, my tears seem to come almost everyday..
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald
我：明天出门前要记得跟我说byebye喔！
Enjoyed a movie after a really long time of not stepping into a cinema.
The title of the movie, both english and chinese, seems to be so apt with its underlying meaning, which one would only realise when you get to the ending of the movie.
The ending wasn't as unexpected as I thought (I guessed it at the start of the movie even though I was half-joking to my mum), but it was definitely an interesting ending. Except the part that I didn't sleep much last night and I was half-dying in the movie and brain couldn't work enough to comprehend the ending as nicely.
One of my favourite scenes of the movie...
Perry's singing performance on stage.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZqn2TDDMdA
(Can't find the video on blogger's youtube search, so the link instead of embedding)
Watching Calvin's emotional singing just made my tears fall unknowingly.
The Korean version by Alexander is good too :)
And on a side note, the guy at the ticketing booth looked at me and asked 'Are you 16?' with a o.o face when I asked for 2 tickets for the show. My mum and I were like huh? He said NC16? Then both of us started laughing and I pulled my ic out for him. hehe, feels good. I look younger than 16 ^^
最近听歌偶尔会感到一种心痛…
是空虚吗？
也许我应该少听一些伤心的歌曲。