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.Saturday, May 31, 2014 ' 11:16 PM Y

& I'm waiting

31st May

There's still chance to change my specialisation.

But yes, I wouldn't know what else to do.. and this was the safest I could manage.

The choice I mean. Whether I can manage the modules, we'll see.

Time flew so quickly. It felt like it was still the beginning of May, although finals seem way distant. Maybe I forget about studies and exams a bit too fast. Results too. It felt like days ago when I got woken up by Dad's alarm clock and feeling the panic wave come over me when I thought about results. And how I was upset(?) - no idea what is the right word to describe how I felt - about my results. Perhaps disappointed.

With great expectations comes great disappointment. And so, I should just stick to my usual carefree mindless view towards results. In any case, I hope I do survive the following years. (and eww, I just got reminded of the need to plan timetable)

I finished reading New Moon today - took me 5 hours to read about 360 pages left of the book. I remembered very clearly that the first time I read the series (like 6 years ago?), New Moon was the book I liked least out of the whole series, because it was much less exciting. But it really was necessary for one to read to get all the background details. (And now I felt so repelled against writing my heart only stops for you after re-reading twilight and new moon..)

If I was Bella right now, life would be a whole lot different eh? Those fears of getting killed and losing the ones you loved, instead of wrestling with identity, future, dreams.

But somehow I felt like I settled.

I don't know how.

And I don't know if that is a good thing.

Greetings, June.

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Luping is a lost child that has been seeking for her career direction since the first time someone asked her "What would you like to be when you grow up?", when she was still too tiny to reach the basin in her house. Despite reading books like What Should I Do with My Life: The True Story of People Who Answered the Ultimate Question by Po Bronson, she had been searching like a headless housefly (literally translated from 无头苍蝇) past graduation when she actually probably needed to find a job. Eventually, she found a job and a... direction.

For those who know Luping personally, she loves plushies/soft toys and is prepared to go on war with anyone who gets their hands on her babies. Her babies are personified with voices of hers and her Mummy's, and both of them enjoy framing the babies for things they obviously cannot do. When her Mummy suggested that if one day, the babies actually speak up, “那应该会吓死” (it would probably frighten one to death), she responded that she will instead “开心死” (be happy till death) if xiaofenhong (our cute, hot pink, flat bunny) replies her. That is the extent of her ~~loneliness~~ love for her babies.

And for those who know Luping as Amethyst, she is a rather huge fangirl of the Korean boy band, Super Junior. So much that she learnt (and is still learning - 반가워요!) Korean in hope of understanding what they say without subtitles and avoiding the losses in translation. She has been a fanfic writer for two years and counting, which sparked off her interest in writing and thus, this blog to practise writing so that one day, she might have the courage to apply for a (content) writer position or send in a manuscript to a publisher.

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